A tear slips down my cheek and I wipe it away as I hear the blankets shifting behind me.
“I left and never second-guessed the decision, and I’ve learned to live with the fact that I’m bonded to and in love with someone I clearly can’t be with. Someone I shouldn’t be with, who obviously doesn’t want me, but that’s where I’m struggling. I love him and that isn’t going to change but I’m so goddamn drawn to you.” I push my hair behind my ears and decide now is as good a time as any to dig my hole deeper than before. “I’ve been all but obsessed with you since we met, Liv. You have completely taken over my thoughts; you’re always in the forefront of my mind. Letting you leave without me was never an option but…” I glance over my shoulder as I feel the heat of her body, my girl so close we’re almost touching. “But I’m struggling with the fact that I’m in love with someone else and at the same time, I've fallen so fucking hard for you. I don’t understand how I can still be so in love with Dimitri, but be so in love with you that the idea of you leaving me had me seconds from losing my goddamn mind.”
“Niko… I, I think I understand.”
“Really?” I snap. “Because I don’t. I have dreams about being with him. Dreams so fucking real it’s like I can feel his hands on my body. I can taste him on my tongue. There is a huge part of me that longs for him, that yearns to be with Dimitri again, even though he betrayed my trust and broke my fucking heart.” I clench my jaw and take a deep breath. “But I love you, too. I love you. I want to wake up with you every day and spend every single second with you. I want to crawl into bed with you at night, to hold you and make you feel as special as you make me feel. I want to make you feel loved and treat you the way you deserveto be treated. I want to take care of you, to provide for you and make you feel safe.”
With another dark laugh, I look down at my dick and rub my palms over my thighs. “I want to kiss you. I want to kiss you and touch you. I want to lick your pussy and drink you in. I want to feel you wrapped around my cock while I tell you how beautiful you are, how fucking perfect you are, and how I’m going to love you for the rest of our lives. I can’t imagine letting one goddamn day go by without doing any of that, but I don’t understand how I can feel that way when I want those things with someone else, too, and when you had them before you even knew I existed.”
A long stretch of silence follows my unhinged speech, and I can’t help wondering how long it’s going to take before Liv kicks me out of this RV and leaves me to hitch a ride with Caroline and Tessa. It’s going to happen, it has to after all of that. Feeling that way about one person rocked my entire world when it happened, but twice in one lifetime? It seems impossible.
“I love you, too, Niko.”
My head spins in her direction, my eyes darting to Liv as she whispers her words so softly, so close I can feel them against my skin. “What?”
She nods as a few tears roll down her cheek. “It’s the only way to explain how I feel. I love you.” Liv scoots toward me, hesitantly reaching out to touch Dimitri’s mark on my chest. “I knew what this was when I saw it, and I knew what it meant, but it doesn’t change how I feel about you. Just like being in a pack before I met you doesn’t, though I know now what I had with them is different from what I have with you. I can feel it, how our bond is engrained deeper, how it sits at a bone-deep level that neither of us could fight even if we wanted to.”
Her fingers ghost over my skin, tracing the mark slowly while she watches her hand. “I still love them, I don’t think that’s ever going to change and it’s always going to be something I can feel,but it’s not the same. I can see that now. Just because you’re bonded to Dimitri and you’re still in love with him, it doesn’t mean you can’t fall in love with other people. Especially when it’s clear that fate has so much more planned for you, for us, and it’s obviously bigger and deeper than we can truly comprehend.”
Liv flattens her palm over my chest then starts sliding it toward my heart, pausing to feel it thundering against my ribs before she cups my cheek and forces my eyes on hers. “I have no idea what fate has in store for us and that’s scary, but I know I’m in love with you, Nikolai, and I don’t want to fight it anymore.”
Then she’s kissing me.
Liv is kissing me,me, and I can’t do anything but sit here in complete shock over it.
Which seems to make her second guess everything she just said because she drops her hand and starts to pull away.
No.
No, I’m not going to fuck this up. I’m not going to let her go.
Lightning quick, I turn toward her, reaching for Liv and pulling her to me as I crush my lips to hers. She gasps as I push into her, burying my fingers in her soft brown waves while I lay her back onto the bed. Liv takes my face in her hands as she tilts her head, slanting her mouth over mine, deepening the kiss while pulling me on top of her.
I grunt as she cradles my hips, my cock pressed against her core, every inch of our bodies touching as I explore her lips.
She tastes so damn good, a touch citrusy and sweet. Like lemon and sugar cookies. And she smells fucking incredible, like eucalyptus and peonies, springtime, andmine.I swear to god I’m acting like an alpha but I don’t fucking care. I love her, I want her, and I’m going to make Liv mine.
“Niko,” she whines as my hand slips under her baggy t-shirt, caressing her silky skin before my fingers trace the curve of her breast. “Please.”
I don’t think either of us are entirely sure what she’s begging me for, but it doesn’t matter. I’ll give it to her, whatever it is she wants, whatever she needs. I’ll do anything for this woman and I’ll spend the rest of my life showing her.
Liv sits up briefly, giggling a little when I frown, then she blushes like crazy as she pulls her shirt over her head and I can’t look at anything but her full, beautiful breasts.
I kiss her again as I palm the right one, leaning a bit as she arches into my touch. “You’re goddamn perfect.” I mumble against her lips as her hands slide down the front of my body then I grunt as she wiggles in a way that has her rubbing my dick. “Liv. Fuck, I love you.”
“I love you,” she whispers as her fingers hook the waistband of my boxer briefs, quickly pushing them down until she can’t reach. “I love you so much.”
I nearly growl as I kick my underwear across the room and settle my naked cock between her thighs only to find her panties are already gone.
I glance down between us to confirm, groaning when I see her delicate fingers close around me and Liv lines me up with her slick-soaked pussy. I can’t look away as I watch the head of my cock slip inside her gorgeous body, and I hold my breath as my hips move forward until they’re flush against her.
“Shit,” I pant as I press my forehead to Liv’s. “Shit, you feel incredible.”
She nods as her eyes close briefly before she looks up at me. “So good, Niko.”
“I’ve never done this before.” Her grass green eyes flare before her pupils expand, blowing the fuck out when I quickly add, “I’ve only been with Dimitri.”
“Good.” Liv presses her lips to mine, softly at first before it turns into something possessive and branding. “I like being the first and last pussy you’ll ever have wrapped around your cock.”
