Not my intention at all, so let’s get to business.
“Look, Ray. We broke up four months ago. I’m sorry for how things ended. If there’s something you want to talk about, I think now’s the moment.”
He licks his lips, then thinks for a second. “I need to warn you,” he whispers.
My brows rise in surprise. “Warn me? What fo–”
“Shhh.” He looks around nervously. Then he smiles again, forced and fake.
“Act normal. There are eyes and ears everywhere.”
I nod and smile too. “What’s going on?”
“I’m not sure, I can’t…”
From the corner of the room, I see the guard approaching us.
“Trust no one,” he tells me fast and stands.
“This visitation is over. You need to leave,” the guard says. Deep Diver is already walking away from the table.
“I have a second visit planned.”
The guard sizes me up, then sighs. “Wait in the hallway.”
So I do. I lean back against the cold concrete wall and go over Deep Diver’s words again.
I need to warn you. Eyes and ears everywhere. Trust no one.
Is he messing with me? He knows how easily I spiral. No… he wouldn’t. For all his flaws, Deep Diver doesn’t play with my head like that. If he said it, he believes it.
Maybe I should meet him again and ask what he really meant. Or maybe that’s exactly what he wants, and he dropped that line to make sure I keep coming back.
Fuckfuckfuck.
What am I supposed to do with that? He can’t just drop a bomb like that and walk away.
Well… it’s not like he has many options in jail.
My feet start moving toward the exit. Six steps.
No—no, I need to stay. I’m here to meet Terrence.
I turn around and walk back to my spot.
My spot against the concrete. I’ve claimed it now.
I turn again.
The guard is probably wondering why I’m walking in circles.
Breathe, Yosh. Breathe. Not the place to freak out.
One wrong move and they might taser me. The guards are already watching me, now they’re talking about me.
My meds. Fuck, my meds are in the glove compartment.
I’m going to walk out. I’m going to leave and come back another—
