“You came to me accepting my fuckin’ ring. If you know you ain’t want to be with me for real, then why the fuck did you even show up, Yani?”
“I was coming to tell you no but when I saw you, I was hit with so many memories and I wasn’t thinking straight. Trust we were never meant to be a couple again but somehow, we have been holding on to our past and letting that dictate our future. We are not good for each other.”
I explained it to him the best I could, but he wasn’t trying to hear it. Instead, he was focused on causing me more pain for hurting him in return.
“You got that shit right. My woman at home pregnant with my son anyway. I been over here trying to make it work with yo’ dumbass and neglecting the one woman that’s been rocking with me for real.”
“Xara’s pregnant again? So, if Paxton would’ve never shown up when the fuck were you going to reveal that? Seems like I’m not the only foul being here.”
The thing was Calina’s words were ringing nonstop. She said he was the same person and I genuinely thought he’d changed. I guess all it took was for you to piss somebody off for them to speak their truth.
I wasn’t even upset to be honest because Xara wasn’t the only pregnant woman in this equation. Winnie did end up calling and giving me a time to drop by her office. I did and walked out with an ultrasound that held two sacks. I was pregnant with twins and planned to tell Paxton over dinner but there was no way he was going to have anything to do with me now.
We sat in the mall parking lot in silence. We were consumed in our thoughts and emotions were running high. The tension could be cut with a knife.
Cranking up the truck, he proceeded in driving us back to the house. We entered still not saying a word to each other. While I headed for the kitchen, he went upstairs. When he returned, he had his bags in tow.
“Come to the living room so we can talk like two adults. I’m not with the screaming shit no more.”
I nodded totally agreeing with him. The shouting match we engaged in was a bit too much for me to handle. We both took to the sofa occupying each end. So much was transpiring that I could barely keep up. If he was coming with more drama, then he could just leave. I had entirely too much going on.
“What’s up?” I asked because we had sat in silence for a while and he said nothing.
“Ten years ago, we were barely legal, but we were sure about us. You took a chance with me, and we made it as one for a long time. Brendon was the best thing that ever happened to me. I love y’all baby, I really do.
“But, we grew up together and unfortunately a part. You realized that before I did which was probably why it effected me worse. I thought you were my ending Trust and I tried holding on for so long.
“Hurting you wasn’t my intentions and leaving my family damn sure wasn’t the plan either. Xara gave me drama when it came to you, but she was a breath of fresh air for me. I didn’t want to believe it until we actually parted ways. I missed the comfortability you provided and that made me want it back but we’re toxic, Yani. You deserve to be happy and I’m not the person to service that. I’ve been realizing that the more days we spend together. We were caught up on the time we shared and not how we’ve outgrown each other.”
“So, are we agreeing that the love will always be there but we as one is over?”
He nodded but when he gave me eye contact, I saw tears in his eyes. He was accepting it and that caused me to shed tears as well. Our memories would always be in tact but the ones we would make with our true love would overshadow those. He had Xara and I was praying I still had Paxton.
“Allow me to still be there for y’all whenever you need me, please? I don’t want to leave knowing I’m losing y’all altogether.”
“You’re welcome anytime, Trust. Let Xara know there’s nothing between us as well. I guess hit me whenever you want to see Brendon. I really hope you and Xara work out.”
“Thanks, Yani.”
He stood requesting my hand. I placed it in his and he pulled me up into his embrace. The hug we shared was us mutually letting go. Our time had run its course and instead of continuously arguing about the same old shit, we came to terms with reality. That was the most adult shit either of us had ever experienced mutually.
I saw him out and thought I could have some time to rest but instead I was bombarded with my girls entering disturbing my piece twenty minutes later. All I wanted was a minute to wallow in my misery before having to reach out and fix things with Paxton.
“Yani please get up and meet us downstairs. I don’t know how long Winnie can hold Dawn back.”
“Calina why are y’all in my house? I don’t give two shits about why Dawn is upset. We ain’t really rocking with each other right now anyway.”
“Friend, I strongly advise you to go down there and talk it out with your girl because she’s pretty upset with you.”
What’s new?I threw the covers back and followed Calina downstairs to the living room. Winnie literally was holdingDawn and I was confused as to why. She had been acting funny ever since I revealed the truth about Trust and me.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
“Well—” Winnie couldn’t even talk before Dawn cut her off.
“I told yo’ hoe ass before I left that restaurant that if what you were doing effected my relationship that it was going to be a problem didn’t I?” She lunged at me, and Winnie was able to keep her at bay.
“Dawn neither one of my niggas has anything to do with you. Calm the fuck down because if you lunge at me again, I will meet you half way and give you what you’re asking for,” I warned.
