She nodded. “We could sit here and look out over the ocean, or we could have a picnic in your family room. What do you want to do?”
I wanted to rip her clothes off and take her to bed. But that hadn’t been one of the choices she’d offered up. I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable, and things were strangely awkward between us. “Um… anything is fine with me.”
“Okay. Did you want to get comfortable while I set up some nice things for us?”
“If you’re staying dressed up, I will, too. I’ll help you.”
She nodded, another one of those sad smiles on her face. This time I thought I saw the glint of tears in her eyes.
“Hey,” I said gently and lifted her chin so I could see her big, blue eyes better. There were definitely tears about to spill over. “What’s wrong?”
“It’s nothing. I know you’ve loved her for years. I shouldn’t be jealous. It’s just… I wanted you for myself. But I won’t stand in the way of what the two of you have.” She pulled away from me and went to the kitchen.
That’s when it hit me. “Oh God, I’m anidiot,” I practically yelled.
She jerked around in surprise to look at me. “What?”
“I’m a goddamn fool. You think I’m in love with Carmen. I’m not. Jess, I’m not at all.”
“But I heard you,” I said, not really believing him. “I heard you tell her that you would love her forever.”
“I did tell her that. But what you didn’t hear was the last thing I said. About how I could only love her like a dear friend. That I had feelings foryou, Jess, and I wanted to be with you. That I didn’t want to be with Carmen anymore; not in that way.”
She stared at me slightly open mouthed. “You… aren’t in love with her?”
I shook my head. “Not anymore. Not even a little bit.”
“But she implied you went home to tell your parents that you were in love and wanted to stay in West Bay…”
“I did tell them that.”
She flinched.
“Aboutyou. I told them I’m in love with you, baby.”
“Me?” she barely got the word out before some of the tears finally dropped from her eyes.
“You.” I closed the distance between us and held her. “I had been planning on giving my parents my ideas for the securityfirm one day, but I didn’t have a pressing reason. Until I met you.” I held her face in my hands and kissed her gently. I groaned. “You taste so good.”
“I ate a chocolate covered strawberry,” she admitted.
I laughed and put my forehead against hers. “That’s not what I meant. You always taste good to me. I want to drown in you, Jess. You’re… everything.”
She surprised me by jumping up in my arms and wrapping her legs around my waist.
“Your legs are so strong.”
“It’s the pole dancing,” she breathed. She kissed me again and then again. Before I knew it, we were all over each other. Finally, I walked her into the bedroom and laid her down on my huge California king. I stared at her as she lay there watching me undress for her. Her eyes were hungry as I tossed my shirt aside and started working on my pants.
“Come here,” she crooked her finger at me as she sat up and got on her knees in the bed. “Let me do that.”
I had already been hard. But when she said that? I swear I doubled in size. I couldn’t help but think back to the head she’d given me at the MC strip club. My God. It had been the best of my life by far.
She pulled me to her and undid my belt, my button, and unzipped my pants. Then she pulled out my rock-hard cock. I hissed as she put her hand as far around me as she could. She looked up at me with those blue eyes of hers. “I’ve never seen anyone as thick as you.” She shifted a little. “It makes me wet.”
“Damn, baby.” I was about to bend and kiss her while I worked my hand under her beautiful dress, but then her hot, wet mouth closed around me. All rational thought flew from my head. I tossed my head back. “Jess,” I groaned. God, I’d been waiting for the day we got to do this again.
She pulled back and played with my crown until I couldn’t take it anymore. Finally, I put my hands in her hair and began gently guiding her up and down my length, giving her time to breathe just right so she could take more and more of me. I gasped as she took almost my full length. No one had ever come close to that before besides her, and it was fucking amazing.