Because you are unlovable.
You are so sick in the mind that not an ounce of sleep can come.
She only forgave you because she didn’t want to mess up the group dynamic.
Look at you, already messing up everything.
All you do is mess everything up.
All you do is make people around you miserable to the point where you have to destroy yourself to give them a smile in your presence.
Those smiles are probably fake, just like you are.
Silly Tilly, you are just so stupid.
Wasting your time on people who don’t even like you.
Next time you sacrifice yourself for someone, remember this.
You deserve the pain.
Chapter 9
Tilly
New York blurred by like a movie on fast-forward.
The events were amazing.
On the first day, we went to an event that Yana got invited to and managed to get us tickets as well, which iscrazy.
I loved every minute of it because it was from a brand I love.
Fashion Week was… I can’t even put into words how magical and stunning it was.
The shopping with Yana paid off because we all looked stunning.
The whole thing was pure magic, and I felt like a princess.
We sat in velvet chairs next to people that I watched daily, and as much as I tried not to fangirl, the line was drawn when I saw Harry Styles.
We cheered for designers whose names we couldn’t pronounce, but that didn’t matter because it was a memory I will never forget.
For a week, I felt like I had slipped into a different version of myself — shinier, braver, and freer.
And then, just like that, it’s over.
The hotels, the shows, the street food at midnight, and the beautiful skyline are gone.
As much as I miss it already, New York is a memory I will hold deep in my heart.
I blink, and suddenly we are at theMiami International Airport.
Miami humidity sticks to my skin like a second layer. I’m not complaining though because Miami is still gorgeous.
Literally the moment we step out of the airport, the views are already gorgeous.
Palm trees and sunshine at its finest.
