Silence stretched between us before we started to breathe normally.
“I want to spend more time with you.” He said as he peppered kisses on my chin.
“And what exactly does that mean?” I questioned.
“I want to get to know you outside of business.”
I exhaled. I hated these deep conversations after sex, because how was I supposed to explain that I just was here for a good time, not a long time, without looking like the hoe I am?
“I hear you. But I’m not looking to be in a relationship. My main focus is my career right now; I don’t have much to give outside of that.” I said honestly.
He nodded. “I understand that. I’m with whatever you with,” he said as he kissed my shoulder.
I slipped out of his hold and began to take my shower. He came behind me, took the sponge from me, and bathed my entire body from head to toe.
When we got out of the shower, he dried me off. I went to the closet to grab a robe and see him out. But he stopped me.
“You not gone need that.” He assured me.
Instead, he put me in the center of the bed and kissed over my body. He kissed down my stomach and over my thighs. Then he balled me up, pressing his hand on the back of my thigh as he slid another condom down his length and entered me again. He sucked my toes as they rested against his chest, massaged my clit, and slid his dick in and out of me.
“Shit, A!” I moaned.
He stopped rubbing my clit and used the other hand to hold my other thigh back and fucked me until I was wetting the comforter underneath us.
“Damn,” He chuckled as he released into the condom.
When he discarded the second condom, I thought that he would call it quits. But I was wrong. When he came back into the room, he picked the box of condoms up and retrieved another one. At his command, I lazily picked myself up from my position on the mattress and went over to the edge of the bed and bent over in front of him.
He slid back into me again and fucked me from the side of the bed. After we both came for the last time, he got back into bed with me and pulled me against him.
I dozed off and woke up this morning still pressed against his body, and his face nuzzled in my neck. It was a little after 6 a.m. I can’t believe that I had slept through an entire night with this man lying against his body like he was supposed to be in my bed. But I just didn’t feel compelled to kick him out afterward. Maybe it was his familiarity and knowing that I would have to see him again anyway. Or maybe it was those muscles that felt like pillows. Either way, our time together had neared its end.
He kissed my neck almost like he could feel the moment I woke up, and I turned to him. His eyes were still closed when he said, “Good morning.”
“Good morning,” I said as I cleared my throat and tried to find the best way to go ahead and wrap this up.
But I didn’t have to. He pulled me back to him and kissed my neck, and then he slipped out of the bed and walked to the bathroom. When he came out, he walked over to his clothing that was on the ottoman and started to put them on.
When he was completely dressed, he came over to the end of my bed and then leaned over to kiss me.
“I’ll see you later, okay?” He said as he fastened his belt buckle.
“Okay.” I rasped.
He nodded and then disappeared from the room.
I walked downstairs just seconds after I heard my front door closing. I already knew that I was going to be late going into the office today. So, I didn’t even rush. I took my time around the kitchen making a smoothie and scrambling some eggs. Now I’m sitting at the desk, writing and getting prepared for the day ahead of me.
Sometimes breaking the rules ain’t that bad.
The Heaux
October 23, 2021
Life looks a little different right now, and I need to reflect a little.
I know that this journal was intended to document my sexual experiences. But I had something on my mind. I’m sitting at the bar in my kitchen after coming back from a date with Big A. It’s the third one this week. I’m tired, my hair looks like it was run through a cheese grater, and I’m slick with sweat. We had dinner on a boat tonight, and all I kept thinking about when we finished was how I was going to suck his dick underneath themoonlight. That was, until the captain recognized me and said that he was so honored to meet me. So instead, we just fucked in the backseat of his truck like we were horny twenty-year-olds.
