She didn’t move.
Her chest didn’t rise.
I watched for it. Waited for some sign that I hadn’t gone as far as I thought I had.
Nothing.
I stood there, breathing hard, the skillet still in my hand.
My arm was shaking.
I set the skillet on the counter.
Stepped over Layla’s body like she was a piece of furniture.
Walked to the wine fridge and pulled out a bottle of pinot grigio—Amai’s favorite, the expensive kind he kept for special occasions.
I poured myself a glass.
Took a long, slow sip.
Then I turned back to the stove, where the food Layla had been cooking was still simmering.
Shrimp étouffée. Amai’s favorite.
I picked up the spatula, rinsed it off in the sink, and stirred the pot.
Added a little more seasoning.
Tasted it.
Perfect.
Behind me, Layla was still on the floor, unconscious, a thin line of blood trickling from her hairline onto the tile. She wasn’t breathing anymore.
I just kept cooking.
Kept sipping my wine.
Kept moving through the motions like nothing had happened.
Because if I stopped?—
If I let myselffeelwhat I’d just done?—
I’d fall apart completely.
And I couldn’t afford that.
Not now.
Not ever.
The wine was good. Expensive. The kind of wine that tasted like money and didn’t apologize for it. My type of shit. One thing I never had to compromise on being with Amai is the finer things in life. You represent him and Amai hates for his aesthetic to the world to be… subpar.
I took another sip and scrolled through Instagram without really seeing anything. Just needed something to do with my hands. Something to keep my mind from the body on the floor.
I didn’t look at it. Didn’t need to. I already knew what I’d done, and I was barely keeping the nausea at bay.