With my decision made, I turn back towards the house. I’m about twenty minutes away.
All I can think about is them, so I don’t see the truck until it’s too late.
The truck slams into me and I’m thrown from my bike.
I turn my head to the truck and see someone getting out, but then there are a bunch of shouts of people running over to me, which seems to have scared him away.
All I can remember about him is that he has a scar on his face.
I can’t seem to make my body get up or move as everything hurts. Eventually, I feel darkness take over.
All I can think about is that I will never get to tell Ana and Maverick how I feel.
I will never get to hear them call me Levi.
Maverick “Viking”
I hated watching Ana walk out of my life when I thought I’d lost her and ruined everything between us.
Watching Ice walk away is filling me with the same pain, anger, and panic. I don’t know if he will take that jump with us, which worries me the most.
Ana is right though. We can’t just live our life while Ice has one foot out the door. It would feel like we would be waiting for him to walk out, and that’s no way to live.
I take a crying Ana to the vehicle. Once we get inside, she lets out sobs. There’s a mix of words that sound like she is requesting food. I’m not a hundred percent sure, but you can’t go wrong getting a pregnant woman food.
I stop at a couple places and run in to grab the food while Ana waits in the car. I know she won’t want anyone to see her like this, so I try to be as quick as I can before making our way home.
Ice’s bike is already gone when we get back. Once I get Ana settled on the couch with the food surrounding her, I check our bedroom. It looks like Ice took some of his things.
I squeeze my eyes closed as the pain hits me. “Please don’t give up on us,” I whisper brokenly to the room.
I compose myself before heading back to Ana. She has a movie on, but I can tell she’s not really watching.
“What if he walks away? Did I push him too hard?” she asks when I sit down beside her and put an arm around her.
I let out a sigh. “I think we just found out we were having two babies, and everyone’s emotions were really high; but we were also both feeling the distance he was putting between us.
“I didn’t realize how hard I had fallen for him until I watched him walk away. He’s become such an important person to me,” she admits.
“I know, Button. Me too. I pictured the three of us here, raising our kids. Being happy,” I tell her.
“I just don’t want to go through that kind of pain again. When you got distant and seemed uncaring, I didn’t know why or what I did wrong. I questioned everything I did and said. I’d go through everything over and over in my mind, and worry every day if it was the day that you were going to finally leave for good,” she says softly.
“Button…” I start, but she cuts me off.
“No, I need to say this,” she says before taking a big breath. “The loneliness kicked in and I wondered if I could live my life like this; unhappy and alone. The decision to walk away was one of the hardest things for me to do. Sometimes I wonder if it will happen again, and I’ll feel that emptiness all over again.”
“I knew from the moment I saw you that you were the one. Just keeping that part of me a secret from you made me feel guilty and like shit because it felt like you didn’t know all of me, which was true. I’ll admit, I was a shitty husband for a long time. I’ve been doing everything I can think of to try and show you I won’t be that man again. It’s going to take time, and I understand that. I know the moment you will have let me in again will be the moment I hear those three little words coming from your sweet lips,” I say, looking into her eyes.
“I hope I can let you in again one day,” she whispers.
I pull her close and just breathe her in.
Things can spiral out of control so fast. Life can change in an instant.
One minute I was happy hearing my babies for the first time, and now it feels like my relationship with Ice and Ana is on the rocks.
I wish there was a way that I could fix it.
