Page 9 of Gang of Roses: Kash

“Donnie, I need you on him scoping the scenery relaying info. You gon’ drop the lo when he get settled. I have his but ain’t no telling where he going after he get his shit. Once we pull up, Deonna keep the engine hot while we get that up off him.”

“Why the fuck do I always got to drive? Everybody at this table got a license. Have somebody else do it. I want to buss my nine, too,” she complained.

Deonna had no idea how hard it was having her on the jobs. Regardless of what she wanted to label herself as, she was my lil’ sister. My only sister. She wasn’t built for this life but because her brothers was all she knew, she wanted to be by our side. I would never put her in harm’s way so if driving the getaway car was that, then so be it.

Ignoring her, I continued with, “Draymond, I need you on every security system and alarm. Donnie don’t leave my fuckin’ side. The second we get up in that muthafucka, it’s go time. Shoot anything that looks armed and dangerous. The money is all we’re after. Let him keep them petty ass diamonds. It’ll be hard to move something so rare. By the end of the night, we’ll be swimming in the same three million I wrapped for him.”

“Y’all not finna just bypass that, D. I want to go in, too!” she shouted.

I was on my feet damn near stretched across the table in her face. I played ‘bout a lot of shit but the safety of my family wasn’t one of them. Deonna was gripped by the collar of her shirt with my mother grabbing me the next second.

“Let her go, Declan. Let her go,” she cried out.

“I mean this with every ounce of respect, Ma, but please get the fuck off me,’ I said shrugging her off my arm.

“Deonna, you fail to realize who the fuck the big dawg is ‘round here. Don’t shit move ‘til I say so, and when I say so, it’s going the way I fuckin’ want it to. This family living like it’s living ‘cause yo’ big brother risking his life and freedom for it. All I ask is for y’all to play yo’ part. If something happen to you, I’m taking ten times as many with me. Sit yo’ ass in that car and wait. You got me?” I spoke sternly simply ‘cause she was still the baby at the end of the day. I also released her shirt allowing her to gain some control of herself.

Deonna wanted to fight me on this, I could tell from the look in her eyes. However, that shit wasn’t flying with me. I gave zero fucks ‘bout her being a stud and dressing like a nigga. She still had the title of being my mother’s only fuckin’ daughter. I would never bring that kind of pain to my mama.

“Answer him, Deonna,” Pops stated. He was always on my side, and they hated it. He knew the Saint’s wouldn’t be as comfortable as we were if I didn’t make the sacrifices.

“I got it,” she replied with anger on her tongue. I truly ain’t give a fuck how mad she got. If she wanted in, she was gon’ sit her gay ass in that car and wait.

“Cool. I’m gone.”

“Where you going, D?” Draymond questioned.

“My woman in town. I’ll see y’all tomorrow,” I commented leaving my food on the table.

I was over dinner. I knew what was happening in approximately twenty minutes. I had more than enough energy for that. Making my way out the dining room, I strolled pass the stairwell, snatching up my duffle bag.

My mother was on my heels in the process. She was going to see me off no matter where I was headed. I loved her lil’ ass even though she was sensitive as fuck.

“You’ll tell Solenne I said hi, right?” she inquired.

Smirking, I voiced, “I always do. I love you lady.”

“I love you more baby boy. You two be safe.” Nodding, she stood there watching me climb back into my ride.

Family.

I couldn’t live without them. I’d be lying if I said I could.

3

BED PEACE

KASH

The aroma of vanilla and chocolate flowing throughout my hotel room had me more relaxed than ever. The drive back to magnolia was long, draining, and so unpredictable. I wouldn’t be surprised if I woke up sick as a dog in the morning from how much rain I encountered. However, Magnolia was blue skies and sunshine when I finally made it in.

It was always bittersweet coming back home. My sister was gone and that was something I had to deal with on a daily basis. Her love, her laugh, her brightness to my life period was missed. She gave me a sisterhood… a family. I would forever be in her debt.

No worries though. I had something rich, dark, and chocolate on the way to take my mind off a few things. When times got hard for me, he was always a call away. Wherever I just so happened to be in this lonely ass world, he would show up without hesitation. The perfect fuckin’ gentleman, yet it was like pulling teeth for him to get me to commit.

I loathed committing to anything or anyone if it didn’t involve my sisters.

Did I love him?