Page 90 of The Bonds of Indigo

“Nothing.”

He gives me that ‘yeah right’ look. His tongue runs across his bottom lip like he’s preparing to call me out on my bullshit. I don’t let him get that far and wrap my hand around his throat.

“Can’t I just look at my little deviant without needing a reason?” My thumb glides along his sharp jawline before I shift my grip to trace down the ridge of his Adam’s apple. “Does it bother you?”

“You know it doesn’t,” he whispers. “I can just see there’s more in your eyes than the simple act of looking at me.”

Leaning forward, I brush my lips against his. “Looks like I’m becoming too predictable…” He smiles, but I pull him into a kiss I want to last forever.

Persistent little Incubus—he always needs answers.

He pulls back enough to rest his head on my bicep, staring me down. “Seriously, Kayn.”

I groan and slide my hand down his back, pinching his ass before grabbing his tail. “Fine, if you insist.” His tail twitches—he loves it touched, if the way his cocks get hard is any indication. “I was just thinking about how glad I am to have you. For someone like me, I didn’t think I’d ever find anyone who could outlive me.”

His brows pinch, the violet in his eyes darkening. “I’m not going to outlive you…”

“I don’t think I need to remind you, Luce—you can’t die.”

He groans. “I hate that nickname. I prefer ‘little deviant.’”

I shift down, nibbling at his ear. “Yeah, I know. But it’s fun to get under your skin.”

“K-Kayn, wait.”

My teeth trail down his jaw, biting and sucking along familiar marks until I reach the spot on his neck where I’ve claimed him so many times. “You know I don’t like waiting. I’m not a patient person.”

“Just…” Fuck, the way he pants has my dick ready to be back inside of him. “I want to tell you something.”

I let out a low, frustrated growl. He gets in his head a lot about the future, and I knew bringing it up would have us spiral in to what if’s I’m not wanting to talk about.

However, I know what he needs and sit up to look into his eyes. “Go for it, little deviant.”

“I just don’t want you to be hurt if⁠—”

“Lucifer, there is no ‘if’. If nothing. You’re mine, and that means for eternity… and I am not sorry for that.” Grabbing his jaw, I drag my thumb across his lips. “You hear me?”

He swallows roughly.

“Eternity together will be such a beautiful journey.”

I can see it in his eyes that same fear of attachment he’s had since the beginning. “Yeah… but, Kayn, regardless of how much time we have together, just know that I will have enjoyed every second of it. Whether that’s hours” —just that thought nearly ceases my heart—“or years. I’ve loved this: Us.”

“Forever. Eternity. Lucifer, there’s no other option.”

There’s a slight pause before he smiles. “You are always so optimistic, and maybe a little naïve… and delusional.”

I tut. “I’ll show your ass how naïve I am, and punish you for thinking you have a choice with me.”

His deep laugh is cut off by our mouths crashing together. He can fuck off with that nonsense, he’s mine. All fucking mine.

“Kayn!”

Gods, is it even possible to get some sleep? I know I don’t need it, but it’s the only place I get any peace these days. Fucking Beyond.

“Kayn, get up!” Atlas whisper-shouts, and I scrub my eyes to get the shit out of them.

I sit up and glare at him. It’s the middle of the night, and the last time something like this happened Amarah was out meditating. Fine—he hadn’t tried waking me then, but still.