“I want you to stroke your clit for me,” he said. “Come on, Poppy. Let me hear you. Tell me how it feels.”
I moved my fingers and cried out. Johnny groaned on the other line.
“Jesus, baby…talk to me.”
“I need something inside me,” I rushed out.
“You have a vibrator?”
“Yes—”
“Get it.”
I fumbled for the nightstand drawer, got it open, found what I was looking for. My hands were shaking slightly.
"Okay," I breathed. "Okay, I've got it."
"Good." A pause. "Turn it on. Low."
I did. The sound of it in the quiet apartment felt obscene and perfect.
"Tell me when you're ready," he said.
"I'm ready," I said immediately.
A low sound. Almost amused. "Slow down."
"Johnny—"
"I said slow down." Not harsh. Just certain, the way he was certain about everything. "You're not rushing this. We're doing this right." A pause. "Run it over yourself first. Outside. Don't put it in yet."
I whimpered.
"I know," he said. "Do it anyway."
I did what he told me, and the sound I made was completely involuntary—loud in the quiet apartment, embarrassing, and he responded to it immediately with a low exhale that told me he was not as unaffected as he sounded.
"Good," he said. "How does that feel?”
"So good," I managed. "Really good. I need—"
"Not yet." Another pause. "Tell me what you're thinking about."
"You," I said. "Your hands. The way you had me on the counter—"
"What else?”
"Your voice." I pressed my head back. "The way you talk to me."
"Yeah?" Low. Rough. "What do you want me to do to you, Poppy. When I get my hands on you Tuesday. Tell me."
"I want—" I exhaled. "I want you to touch me like this but actually you. I want your fingers."
"You'll have them."
"I want your mouth."
A beat. "You'll have that too."