Page 50 of Coming Clean

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Jeremy reached up and traced Connor’s cheekbone. “Don’t hold backon me this time. I want you to say all the things, do all thethings you didn’t the other night. I want you to be fully here withme.”

“I was there before, when you… Iwanted to tell you, but I was trapped inside myself. I let fearwin. But you… You were perfect.”

Jeremy tugged Connor down so he could kisshim. “There’ll be time for us to explore each other, lots of time,but right now I need you. This is kind of new for me too.”

Connor frowned. “What do you mean?”

“Well, not new really, just unusual. It’sbeen a long time since I bottomed.”

Connor looked stunned. Most people assumedJeremy, with his somewhat effeminate looks, was a bottom. “If youdon’t want—”

“No! The thing is, I love to be fucked, but Idon’t trust easily and I won’t let anyone fuck me if I don’t trustthem.”

Connor got that look, the one that toldJeremy he wasn’t used to being praised. “But with me…”

“I trust you, Connor. Whatever the reason, Ijust do.”

Connor gave him another kiss, a quick, gentleone this time. “Thank you. I know I hurt you yesterday. I’m goingto try not to hurt you again. I can’t promise I’ll succeed, butI’ll go as slow as you need me to.”

Jeremy shook his head. “You don’t have to betoo gentle. I love the power in you, the aggression, the hunger Isee on your face when you look at me.”

“Fuck!” The lust on Connor’s face pushed himto say more.

“Yes! I want you to fuck me. Do youunderstand? You’ve wanted a man like this, all yours with no reasonto rush. Make that wish come true.”

“I’ve never even been fully naked in bed withanyone,” Connor confessed.

“Then we have a lot of catching up to do.”Jeremy hated that Connor had never had the freedom to be himself,but he was also thrilled to be the first one Connor could take histime with.

Jeremy watched as Connor reached for the lubeand squeezed some onto his fingers. When he circled Jeremy’sentrance with a slick finger, Jeremy groaned. Then Connor pressedin just a little, using his other hand to hold Jeremy’s hip asJeremy tried to push back and take him deeper.

After a few more seconds of toying with him,Connor pushed one finger and then a second past the tight muscleguarding Jeremy’s ass. He slid in and out slowly until Jeremy begancursing him.

“Eager, are you?”

“Fuck, yes.” Jeremy didn’t think he couldwait a second longer.

“You have a very dirty mouth, professor.”

“Yes, I fucking do, and it’s going to getworse if you don’t put your cock in my ass right fucking now.”

Connor laughed. “I love hearing those filthythings from you. You’re so beautiful, with your silky hair and yoursoft skin, but you like dirty things, don’t you? You like to befucked. You want me to plow your ass until you come.”

“Oh my God. Connor, please!” Jeremy was goingto go insane if Connor didn’t get on with it and do the things hesaid. He was fucking perfect.

Jeremy trembled as Connor drew his fingersfrom Jeremy’s body, rolled on the condom, and slicked himself up.When Connor was ready, Jeremy raised his legs, setting them onConnor’s shoulders, thankful he’d kept himself flexible.

Connor pushed forward slowly, and Jeremy bithis lower lip to keep from crying out. Fuck, Connor was big and hewas really tight. Breathe. Just breathe.

Finally, Connor worked himself past the tightring of muscle trying to keep him out even though Jeremy wantedvery much to have him inside.

“God, Jeremy. This is so good.”

“I want more. Please, I won’t break.” Hewanted all of Connor. He didn’t care that it burned, that he feltlike he was going to be stretched in two.

“Don’t want… to hurt you.”