Page 125 of Raven’s Fight

We look at each other. I look at the face I have known for a hundred and twelve years and find I have nothing to say yet that would be true, so I say nothing. He gestures to the chair across from him. I sit. He sits.

We begin.

It isn't a brief conversation. Across the weeks of preparing I thought about what kind it would be — whether he would deny it, or argue that my information was wrong, or try to turn me. There is none of that. What there is instead is Aldric in the late afternoon light of a northern meeting house, explaining himself. Not defending himself. Explaining. The difference matters, and he is making it deliberately.

He chose a position a long time ago, one I never believed he held, and he kept up the appearance for a century because it was useful. And because — this is the part I was not prepared for — he did not want to lose the friendship. Even while working against everything the friendship sat inside, he did not want to lose it.

I sit with that a moment.

"Why," I ask. It is the question I told Raven I needed to ask, whether or not it produced a useful answer. Nine centuries is long enough to know that some questions matter in the asking, even when the answer can't give you what you hoped for.

He tells me. The reason is not simple and it is not stupid. It is the reason of a man who thought his way there sincerely, however wrong the place he arrived. I won't put it in this account. It's his; the hearing of it is mine, and some things don't need writing down to be real and carried.

What I will say is that it changes nothing about what he did or what I came here to do. It only gives me something I can hold alongside the betrayal without the two canceling each other out. That is the texture of an ancient friendship ending. Not a clean cut. The complicated weight of knowing someone well enough to understand him even in the moment of his worst choices.

So I give him the offer.

"One chance," I say. "Step away from the operation. Give what you know to the Marzana network. Take yourself out of the picture entirely. One chance — and not because you've earned it. You haven't. Because we were something to each other for a century, and that earns you one."

He is quiet a moment, looking at me with the face I have known for a hundred and twelve years.

"I will not step away," he says. There is no hesitation in it, which tells me the decision was made before I arrived. He came to this conversation already knowing what he would choose.

I nod once. I believe him.

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What I do next, only a phoenix can do.

This is what Raven didn't know when she asked what I needed from her, and what I didn't explain. It's why I told her this part was mine — not because of the century, but because of the mechanics.

You cannot end a phoenix by killing it. You can kill one; it isn't even difficult. We are easy to injure and we die the way most things die. But the dying doesn't take. The fire is not something a phoenix carries. The fire is what a phoenix is, and it sits behind the breastbone, and as long as it is there the body is a temporary arrangement. Burn one of us, break one of us, put a blade through one of us, and all you have done is inconvenience him and make an enemy who will remember it for four centuries.

To end a phoenix, you take the core. To take the core, you have to reach into the fire. And there is only one creature on this continent who can reach into a phoenix's fire and still have a hand at the end of it.

Fire doesn't burn fire.

Aldric has known this since I walked through the door. It is what he has been sitting with across the whole long conversation — not whether I would do it, but that I was the only one who could, and that my arriving and his ending were the same event.

He stands. He doesn't run, and he doesn't shift, and he doesn't reach for the fire the way a younger man would, spending everything in one bright useless surge that would take the roof off the meeting house and change nothing at all.

What he does is tidy.

He squares the papers on the table in front of him, the afternoon's work, the pages he won't finish. He aligns the edges with two fingers. He caps the ink. He moves his chair back against the wall where it belongs, out of the way, so nothing will be knocked over.

A creature of continuity. To the last.

Then he turns and faces me and opens the front of his coat.

"Finlay," he says. Just the name, the same word he used when I came through the door. A hundred and twelve years, bracketed by my name in his mouth twice, meaning something different at each end.

"Aldric," I say.

He doesn't close his eyes.

I put my hand into his chest.

There is a threshold, and then there is heat — not pain, but heat the way the mouth of a forge is heat, an enormous energy in a small space going about its business with no interest in you. His fire parts around my wrist. It knows who I am. It doesn't resist me because it can't; fire has no opinion about fire, and the oldest reflex a phoenix has — the one that closes the body against everything, that has kept him alive longer than most nations have existed — does not recognize my hand as a thing to close against.