Page 87 of It’s The Dawg In Him For Me

My eyes filled with tears again, and I put the phone down and went into the bathroom to get dressed.

Once I got myself together and felt like my face wasn’t as puffy as it felt, I left out with fabric for work and school and headed to the store.

I stopped on my way there; I felt like I needed a drink and grabbed me a bottle of Henny from the liquor store across the street before I walked into work.

“What was you ova there getting?” Denise asked as soon as I opened the door.

“A bottle and a soda,” I said bluntly, no enthusiasm in my voice at all.

I unloaded my shit, and Denise just stared at me.

“Are you okay?”

I shook my head. “No, not really. Ro keeps callin’ and texting.”

“So I take it that the talk didn’t go well?”

I took a seat after fixing me a glass of Henny and Coke at nine in the morning.

“In the text, he is tellin’ me that he was set up, that Blaze was mad ‘cause I didn’t want him, which I can see. Blaze had been on some other shit since I had been comin’ around with Rosama, but that still don’t answer why he was even there. We were in bed that night. He fucked me to sleep.”

“The only person that can give you the answer is Rosama. Are you going to talk to him?”

I took a sip. “I don’t know. Denise, I was falling for that man. Thinkin’ he might be the one for me, and then this shit happens.”

“So why won’t you talk to him and hear him out if you think this is all Blaze doin'?”

“’Cause what if it’s not and I forgive him too fast? What if he really did that shit and I'm bein’ dumb and in love?”

Denise laughed a lil’ and fixed herself a cup of Henny. “I loved seeing you happy with Rosama, but at the same time, I don’t want you to be with somebody that is not gonna do you right.”

“So what do I do? I feel like my heart is too wrapped up in this to think straight.”

Denise nodded. “I think you need to focus on work today so you don’t drown yourself thinking about him, and then when you get home, get comfortable and weigh your options. If you need to make a pros and cons list, then decide if you are goin to talk to him, but at the end of the day, nobody can make this choice but you.”

I agreed with her.

The morning went smoothly. We had some customers come in here and there. We sold a few items, and I got a custom dress order.

By lunch, Rosama was back to calling my phone. Denise took it from me and put it in her office.

“Focus on what is in front of you. He can wait.”

I smiled and fixed another cup.

Toward the end of the day, Ari and Raven came by for the tea. Denise filled them in while I took somebody's measurements. I got my client taken care of and set up for her next fitting, then walked her to the door so I could go and join the conversation about myself.

“So, I said,” sitting down and grabbing my cup off the table. “What have y’all figured out for me?”

“That you need to fuck pit bull eyes up!” Raven said.

I laughed. “I got some licks in, trust me.”

They laughed.

“I agree with Denise,” Ari said, “I think you gonna have to figure out what you want.”

“I think that you should leave him the fuck alone,” Raven voiced.