“1, 2, 3, roll … 1, 2, 3, slide.”
Something lifts beneath my body.
The world tilts.
A baby cries again somewhere nearby, followed by a shushing sound.
My chest feels like an elephant is sitting on it. I don’t want the quiet anymore. I don’t want to leave her.
Amelie.
Then, blackness crashes back down.
***
A siren wails. It rises and falls like a strange, distant song.
A warm hand is holding mine. Someone is praying.
A thumb keeps brushing over my fingers.
Back and forth. Back and forth.
“Stay with me, Luna,” a voice murmurs. “Don’t leave me … Love, don’t leave me.”
I know that voice.
Isaac.
But that doesn’t make sense.
He isn’t supposed to be here.
He’s somewhere else.
Far away.
Dreaming about—
I turn away as the pain in my chest returns, obliterating everything.
The siren grows louder.
Then softer.
And softer.
Until everything disappears.
***
A Memory
My fingers smell like engine grease. I love the scent because it smells like Daddy.
Daddy’s old blue Ford sits in the driveway with its hood open, and I’m standing on a wooden crate beside him so I can see inside.
“Pass me the wrench, Lulu.”