Page 36 of Melt His Heart

At first, I wondered how he even got my address here. I’ll be having a little chat with my coach back in New Jersey when I return, which needs to be soon. He also sent gifts and food for my parents. My mom has been trying not to snoop, but I know she’s wondering, and eventually it will become a conversation. My heart jumps just thinking about him.

I see him in my dreams at this point.

Picking up my phone, I find clips from his team’s latest conference after their recent win. Carson is sitting at the table, looking just as handsome as the last time I saw him. He’s smiling so charmingly as he answers all of the reporters’ questions. They ask him one that really sticks out to me.

“So, are there any superstitions that’s been helping you guys out with your winning streak lately?” They ask.

“My lucky hamster, I suppose.” He says, chuckling. The journalist laughed a bit at his answer.

Lucky hamster.

My eyes start to sting a bit with tears, “You’re so silly.” I whisper to myself. I miss him and his ridiculous superstitions.

I get up to open the side door that leads to the garden area from my room, letting the breeze in and putting some of the vases on the ledge.

My own little flower shop.

Liam has also been checking on me since I’ve been back in Seoul, and this feeling of having people outside of my parents who care about me and my family overwhelms me; it’s a good overwhelming though…I think.

Speaking of Liam, I’ve been thinking about asking him for advice on what I should do about Carson. I mean, he’s married, and they seem happy, healthy, above all. I never had a friend to even ask these things to, so I don’t even know where to start. I could just ask, I still need to reply to his message he sent yesterday morning, his time.

I thumb through my text messages to find Liam’s. Morning time here is the only time we’re both still awake, so it’s now or never, I guess.

Liam: hey just checking on you, hope everything is ok with your dad!

Me: Yes, he’s still doing well. I should be back soon.

Liam: that’s good to hear! I can’t wait to see you again!

Me: I can’t wait to see you too!

Me: So…I think I need some advice.

Liam: oh!?

Me: Yeah.

Me: Some boy advice?

Liam: boy you say? I’m listening, maybe I can be of service to you oh little one lol.

Me: Lol please.

Me: Sooo…There’s this boy, we became friends and I..I think I like him?

Liam: oh that’s good!

Me: He’s straight.

Liam: oh.

Me: And I think I’m allergic to vulnerability.

Liam: ooohh…I can see how that could be a thing lol. suprised you’re even sharing this.

Me: HEY!

Liam: Loool. I’m assuming he doesn’t…know you like him?