Page 198 of Wait for Him

"Run your nails down my back," I whisper against her skin as I trail lower and pull her taut nipple into my mouth.

Her hands move over my shoulders gently, barely scratching the surface of what I need.

"Harder, baby."

I climb over her and her legs spread for me. This time her nails dig in, and the sting gets a response. Goosebumps break over my arms as I drop my head against her neck and ask her to do it again, harder this time.

She does.

"Fuck, yeah. Like that. Again. Please, harder."

I kiss her hard and buck my hips against her, letting her feel my body respond. Relief hits first. Thank fuck. I can do this. I can be here with her, give her what she deserves, stop thinking for five fucking minutes and just feel.

Then I take her hand and wrap her fingers around my throat.

"Squeeze, baby."

She hesitates.

It's only half a second, but I see the confusion. I've never asked this of her before. Never even hinted at it. Her fingers tighten carefully, asking me how far I want her to go.

My body responds immediately.

I take her other hand and put it on the opposite side of my throat. "Hard as you can."

I line my cock up with her slick entrance, and the second I feel her hands squeeze, I press in.

"Fuck. Fuck."

I slam into her, over and over and over. Harder, faster, chasing every sharp little bite of pain she gives me and asking for more. Rian holds on exactly the way I asked her to, even though none of this is familiar to her, and some part of me registers that she is still trying. Even now, after calling me out for not being here with her, she's trying to give me whatever the fuck I seem to need.

"Just like that. Clench, baby. Let me feel you. So fucking good."

One of her hands leaves my throat and grabs a fistful of my hair and pulls. The pain shoots straight through me, and my control nearly goes with it.

"This is what you want?" she growls against my mouth before catching my bottom lip between her teeth.

"Fuck. I'm gonna..."

She arches against me and bites down on my shoulder as she comes, and the pain pushes me over with her. I hold onto her while it tears through me, both of us shaking through the last of it until we're spent.

Then everything goes quiet.

I roll onto my back and put my forearm over my face.

The shame doesn't take long. I know exactly what I just did. Worse, I know exactly why those particular things worked when nothing else did.

"I'm..."

"Don't."

Rian sits up and gets out of bed. She keeps her back to me while she takes a long breath, and when she finally speaks, her voice is level again.

"That will never happen again."

I lower my arm.

"You don't have to love me. But you will never use my body in place of hers again. Ever." She reaches for her robe and pulls it around herself. "Go home. I'll see you tomorrow."