Page 285 of Between Two Kings

I hated every moment of that dinner. I hated the way you volunteered for the bloodletting. I hated the way Evelyn smiled when you did it. I hated the way you told me my father would be proud. I fucking do not think he would be. Nothing could be worse than making that monster of a man proud.

I miss you so badly it hurts.

Yours,

Leo

Tem,

Something is drawing me to you. I can’t stop it. I wake up every night thinking of you, and sometimes I’m halfway out the door before I remember I can’t go to you. Does your brute of a husband know how lucky he is? Does he understand the paramount privilege he enjoys being married to you? He’s the one who gets to kiss you. He’s the one who gets to fuck you. At least…in person. You cannot imagine what I’ve done to you in my dreams.

Yours,

Leo

Tem,

I swear I feel worse every day I’m not with you. It’s like I need to touch you, and if I don’t, I’ll die. Do you feel that too? Or do I yearn alone?

Yours,

Leo

Tem,

I wish you hadn’t sent me away tonight.

I would have sat with you for as long as you were down in that awful fucking dungeon. I don’t want you near my father, and I don’t want you bleeding because of me. It’s the last thing I would ever want.

Yours,

Leo

Tem,

I can’t stop thinking about what we did in the library.

You were so beautiful spread open like that just for me. When Evelyn asked how I cut my hand, I couldn’t think of a single fucking thing to tell her. She wouldn’t have believed me anyway.

Yours,

Leo

Tem,

My cock was hard when I woke up this morning. Evelyn slid it in her mouth, and I imagined she was you. Then we fucked, and I took her from behind because that’s the only way I can fuck someone who isn’t you.

Why are you doing this to me? Do you hate me?

Yours,

Leo

Tem,

I can’t bear this much longer.

Yours,