Page 137 of Sienna Rossi: Beyond Shattered Trust

“Which means you’re being fucking lame,” Ares points out.

I rake my fingers through my hair. Maybe I fucking am? I mean, I am. I know I am. I let her go down on me, and I fucking enjoyed it and would do it all over again. A moment of weakness, but it’s undeniable that I keep on fucking up. She knows it, and I know it, too. But when I said we were nothing to one another, then that was where I should have kept it.

But instead I let her give me one fucking amazing blow job. I’m not going to use her for sex, but I’m not able to resist her. That’s a reality that the most delusional man can’t deny.

“You’re struggling with how to let her in again, fearing the worst, right?” Carter remarks.

“Pretty much,” I mutter, admitting it.

He nods, and we fall silent. I lean back, looking out across the empty training field. It’s a few days later, and we’re all at the Night Walkers Pack; we arrived earlier this evening. Those at the Academy were given permission to visit, too, and it is good to be reunited with my brothers. Well, most of them anyway.

Katara’s been ignoring me as well, even when I tried to talk to her. She saw the others today and greeted them happily enough, but I’ve been getting the cold shoulder from her. The girls have also been on the receiving end of her anger. Sienna and Alessandra tried to talk to her as well, but she refused to listen.

Kataleya and her family flew here with Uncle Alejandro and Aunty Kiara this morning. The twins are cute; they look similar but are different. Leandro’s hair and eyes are lighter than his brother’s.

I’ve been avoiding being alone with Sienna, and even then, there are moments when I just want to go over to her and pull her close.

Regardless of the fact that I want to protect her from what it means to be the mate of the Deimos King, knowing the risks that come with it, and the fear and doubts I have, I’ve failed in my attempt to keep her at arm’s length. The realisation hit me after I killed the primordial, and it’s still fresh in my mind with a clarity I can’t fucking deny.

“Tomorrow then.”

They look at me, surprised.

“What?” Renji asks, his eyes widening. “You mean, tomorrow you’re going to ask her to be your Luna?”

I frown. “No. Tomorrow I put an end to this game of push and pull.”

“Same thing,” Carter adds dismissively.

“I’m not going to label it; I’m just going to let everything fall into place by itself. Even the gods know I can’t refuse her.” I sigh heavily yet again, but my decision has lifted a weight from my shoulders.

“Finally! As Theo would say, it’s time to make a Rossi a Westwood.” Renji grins.

I give him a pointed frown. “Like I said, don’t fucking jump to that shit.”

“We all know it’s going to happen; the question was just when. You’re Zeus’ chosen; your bond was going to be powerful regardless,” Ares says.

“And you dickheads need to get a move on it, too; find your mates, man,” I reply, finishing off my beer.

“Enjoying the single life,” Ares says with a cocky smirk. “When I find a woman who is able to tame me, I’ll let you fucking know.”

“She’ll enter your life without you even fucking realising. Trust me,” I say, pointing at him before glancing at the other two. “And you both, too.”

“Taken,” Renji says with a smile. “And we’ll see what the Blood Moon says about it.”

Carter shakes his head. “I don’t have time for dating.”

“Or someone’s on his mind,” Renji hums slyly.

I smirk as Carter gives him a death glare.

“I still can’t believe you killed someone who held the power of a primordial,” Ares remarks lazily.

“What happened to the informant?” Carter asks.

“Well, Ahren ended up dropping him at the Sangue Pack. At the time, Leo didn’t question it, as Ahren had simply asked him to deliver him safely to Alaska. But I heard Leo’s talked to him since, not that he had anything more to share,” I explain. I had already filled them in on what went down.

“Still pissed that you didn’t fucking tell us,” Ares says and Renji nods.