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I don’t move. I just breathe. One more shallow inhale. Then another.

My voice is almost gone when I say it.

“Just stay quiet. Please. Just let me feel this.”

The Chain doesn’t answer. It stays coiled—close, unmoving.

“I know,” I whisper. “I chose this.” My fingers tighten against the stone. “I just didn’t know it would feel like losing him.”

Nothing shifts. No sound. No pull.

But the Chain stays.

And for now, that’s the only truth I get.

Chapter 20

The hole I’m standing in stinks. Rust, sweat, smoke, and that sharp gutter-liquor they pass around when they can’t afford anything legal. It’s soaked into everything—into the ash, the ropes, the floor. Into the back of my throat when I breathe too deep.

I’m at the bottom of the pit, boots sinking into blackened dirt that shifts a little with each step. The place looks like someone tried to dig a grave and just kept going. Fire barrels line the edges, coughing smoke more than heat. They’re jammed into whatever’s left of the stone—cracked corners, rusted brackets, old scaffolding half-collapsed under its own weight. The walls rise sharp around me, too steep to climb unless you’ve got help. Feels like the whole thing could collapse in if the ground so much as flinched.

Ashmere leans over us. From the lip of the pit, I can see the edge of a walkway slick with rain, hear a bottle shatter two levels up. The city doesn’t look down because it cares. It looks down because it always does, like it’s waiting to see who bleeds first.

Vale’s parked just above the edge of the pit, leaned against a cracked column like she’s got nowhere else to be. Arms crossed. Head tilted. She hasn’t said a word since we got here, and I don’t expect her to. That’s the deal—we agreed I’d lead this alone. She only steps in if I go down.

The people in the tiers aren’t here to cheer. Or to back me. They came to see if I’ll fall apart before I even start. They’re worse than strangers. Gang scouts. Freelancers. Black-market runners with sharp eyes and sharper smiles. People who’ve clawed their way up from nothing and don’t trust anyone who didn’t have to bleed for it. I spot a bladepriest with half his face burned off. A Siltborn girl chewing dried meat like she’s bored already.

These people aren’t known for picking the losing side. They don’t wear colors. They wear blood under their nails and steel under their sleeves. Not soldiers. Not loyal. Just dangerous.

But if I hold the pit—if I make it count—some of them might follow. Not because they believe in me. Because they’ll see what I’m building, and decide it’s safer to be on my side.

That’s what this is.

Not a fight. A demonstration. A test.

And I don’t get a second shot.

The Chain rests against my back. Cool. Still. No glow, no hum. That’s deliberate. I want them thinking I walked in here with nothing but my name and a spine stiff enough to carry it.

Someone steps forward. Young, too quick to be this loud. Face thin. Elbows sharp. Tries to make his grin look casual, but it’s wired too tight.

“You don’t get to lead unless you bleed like the rest of us,” he says.

He tosses a knife at my feet.

I crouch. Pick it up. Nod once. That’s all.

He comes in fast. Not precise—fast. The kind of speed you learn from ten back-alley fights and three lucky wins. His elbow skims my ribs, not deep enough to matter. The second strike aims for my neck, overcommitted and way too open. I shift left, plant a foot, catch his wrist, and guide his momentum straight into the dirt. One motion. No effort wasted.

As he drops, I drag the blade across his palm. Not deep. Not cruel. Just enough to mark that it happened.

He lands on both knees. Doesn’t cry out. Just looks up like something in him finally clicked into place.

I let the knife fall beside him and step back.

“I’m still here,” I say. “You?”

He stays kneeling. That’s answer enough.