“I know.”
“In four hundred years. I have never once stayed in the room.” His voice is not right. “I have left at least fifty times. I have left in the middle of the night with a bag and I have left over the course of a year with lawyers and I have left in the most beautiful ways you have ever seen. I have never stayed in the room.”
“You moved a barrel.”
“Theo asked me to move a barrel.”
“Julian.” I get in front of him because I need to see his face. “Theo asked you to move a barrel afterwards.”
I watch him process that. He looks over my head at the pub door and the light shining from the window. Something happens on his face that I have never seen and am not going to be able to describe properly however long I have.
“Yes,” he says.
“That’s the answer right there, isn’t it?”
“Yes.”
“He didn’t even look up.”
“He didn’t look up,” says Julian Volkov, “because there was a barrel.”
Then he laughs, unguarded and much too loud for a parking lot, and Deirdre Fanning looks out of the window at us, and I put both arms around him in the freezing cold and hold on.
After a while he says, “You didn’t come and get me.”
“No.”
“You wanted to.”
“God, I wanted to so much.”
“Why didn’t you?”
I lean my head against his arm.
“Because I wanted it to be your table,” I say. “Not mine, with a place set for you. Yours.”
He’s quiet for a few seconds before his hand closes around mine.
“I think,” he says slowly, “that I may have found one.”
“A table?”
“A place.”
My throat closes.
“Yeah,” I say. “I think you might.”
Behind us the door bangs open.
“Volkov,” Theo bellows. “If you’re done having a moment, there’s another barrel.”
Julian closes his eyes, and I laugh into his coat.
“Your neighborhood needs you.”
“So I gather.”