Page 53 of A Beast Captured My Heart

“Mattea plays in here and my girl is pregnant with my baby, you need to put that shit out.”

Her eyes widened. That was another surprise to her. As if she didn’t hear what the fuck, I said she walked up to an empty coffee cup that Kayori loved for in the mornings and dumped the cigarette butt in there. Going in her bra she pulled out the pack of cigarettes along with her lighter and pulled out a fresh one, placing it to her lips and lighting it. I was now furious, and the voices were now yelling in my head, causing an instant headache.

“Leandra you’re triggering the fuck out of me!”

My voice boomed, Next thing I knew I felt soft hands on my shoulders. I didn’t have to look up to see that it was Kayori set of hands massaging me.

“Hello, I’m Kayori… Praise girlfriend, it’s so nice to finally meet you” she spoke with excitement; Kayori was just thrilled to meet my mom. She didn’t know how much of a bitch Leandra could be. She was about to give her hell like she was giving me.

“Humph.” She rolled her eyes and turned her nose up to Kayori.

That’s why I don’t fuck with her like that! You always letting her get away with being disrespectful! Check her ass!

“Shut the fuck up!” I snapped causing Kayori to jump.

Grabbing her hand over my shoulder, I rubbed it to reassure her that I was okay. I wasn’t, I was starting to struggle and sweat just to keep my cool. I felt myself battling Beast again. I wiped the sweat from my forehead and tried to reassure myself that I could handle this. I didn’t need Beast to check my mom.

“Oh, you getting triggered, huh?” Leandra chuckled as she puffed on that nasty cigarette, it was making me more antsy as I shifted in my seat. I couldn’t keep still to save my fucking life, that in itself was starting to piss me off as anger started to boil inside of me. I hated appearing weak, like I had no control over myself. It was nothing but a “I told you so” from Leandra.

“Praise has been doing really well with his medicine and therapy sessions. Right now, he’s trying to calm himself. Please don’t make it worse,” Kayori spoke with an authoritative tone, letting my mom know she meant business.

It almost put shame inside of me to have people treat you like you were some kind of special case study. I knew Kayori only wanted what was good for me. I just wanted to be the one to be able to control my own self. I didn’t need anybody speaking on my behalf. I hated the fucking voices, especially at times like this. I was probably looking like a fucking maniac, and it was probably comical to Leandra.

I don’t give a fuck what nobody thinks! It ain’t shit wrong with us! You need to accept what the fuck it is! We got what the fuck these other people don’t have! Let me just be in control since you can’t handle this shit!

“Bitch, this is my son. If anybody should be triggered, it’s me! I’m the one worried about his black ass and wondering if or when he’s gon’ kill my other son! I’ve been dealing with his mental behaviors since he was fuckin born. Now go back to the room so I can speak with my son before your fast ass get your feelings hurt.”

Standing to my feet, I started to pace back in forth as Kayori placed her hands on her wide hips fuming with anger.

“Don’t speak to me that way, and this is my house!” she yelled, surprising the fuck out of me. I stopped pacing; my heart rate was still fast. Beast was talking all kinds of shit and it was driving me up the wall. Leandra remained quiet for a second too long as she looked Kayori up and down.

“Hmmph, I don’t see pregnancy on you, child. I see nothing but weight. Just by the look of you, you ain’t my son’s type. Have you seen his exes? That will tell you all you need to know.”

“Ma!” my voice thundered loud bouncing off the walls. I hope I didn’t wake Mattea up, but she was taking me there.

“Watch how the fuck you talk to my woman! She is the mother of my unborn child. If you don’t watch your mouth, I’ll have Brick kick your ass out!”

“And I will kick your ass and this bitch’s ass if you test me!”

Shit started to feel blurry and like night and day, Beast came to the forefront.

Chapter Twenty-Six

BEAST

Every single time, I tried to let this nigga Praise control some shit, he had to pull a soft ass move.

“You coming up in this bitch like I don’t make your life tick, Leandra. You forgot who the fuck pays your bills and make sure you well protected? I killed Laquanna’s momma, she was beating my fucking daughter and starving her. You don’t think that bitch, Quanna, looking to get some type of revenge with that bitch, Nia? You keep fuckin with me, you old bitter ass hag, I’m gon’ pull security and everything else from under your ass, then let you see what it’s like to be a poor old lady!”

“BEAST!” Kayori yelled in shock. it was time for her to go sit her hot and cold ass down. I was just knee deep in that pussy and here comes Leandra fucking up some shit we had going.

“The real you is showing, son. Does your so-called baby momma know how crazy you really are? Does she know how much of a monster you can be? You kill people, bully them, and make people be at the hands of your mercy. When a person makes a mistake, death is your only answer to solve that,” Her voice elevated, and now I was ready to shut her ass down.

It pissed me off further to see the astonished look on Kayori’s face. Was she believing this lady?

“Bitch please!”

Don’t you call our momma a bitch! Chill the fuck out!