Page 2 of Seen by Her Stepdad

CHAPTER TWO

I am so overwhelmed at the moment that I can’t even cry. I feel ashamed and humiliated, of course. I feel embarrassed. I feel particularly horrible because I really like my stepfather. My mom was having a really hard time dealing with life before he arrived, and life got a hundred times better for everyone. In fact, even though it might make me a bad person, I kind of like my stepfather more than I like my mother.

Now, I’ll never be able to show my face to him again!

I bend over and yank my panties up and then my shorts. Then, I almost fall forward onto the bed from the force of the sensations that run through my body just from the contact of the fabric of my panties and shorts. It feels better to me than when I was masturbating. I stagger to the bed and fall onto it, trying to make sense of the physical sensations but not having any luck with it.

Then it hits me.

I have a crush on my stepfather. It’s a lowkey crush. It used to be really intense but a year ago, I masturbated thinking about him. It was the only orgasm I ever gave myself that didn’t suck. I felt so guilty about it because he’s my stepfather and… well, for obvious reasons. So, I kind of let that crush dissipate into lowkey status.

I’m turned on like some kind of porn star right now because all of that must be just a lie that I tell myself. There’s just no way my crush on my stepfather is lowkey at all! So, this guy I have a big crush on saw me completely naked and even though I’m embarrassed and humiliated, the realization he saw me… He saw my breasts and my pussy. He saw my ass. Oh, Jesus, he saw me playing with myself! That ups the humiliation a lot and I groan. I don’t know-how in the world I’m supposed to survive this.

A knock comes at my door. “Dani, are you decent?”

I feel paralyzed as I squeak out, “Yes.” I intend to also tell him not to come in even though I’m decent, but I can’t get the words out.

I hear the door open, and my stepdad walks inside. I turn around and stare at the opposite wall so he won’t see how embarrassed I am.

I feel his arm draped over my shoulder and hear him say, “It’s okay, Dani. The… what you were doing out there? It’s okay. It’s natural.”

I think I’m going to be sick.

“Have you… have you ever…”

I turn to him, my mouth opens in shock. “Oh my God, are you going to ask me if I’ve ever masturbated before?”

He swallows and says, “Um…”

“Oh my God!” I shout. “Just because I’m a virgin doesn’t mean I’ve never masturbated!”

“You’re a virgin?” he asks.

I realize what I said and turn around again, hiding my face in my hands. “Oh my God,” I whisper.

“No, it’s okay,” he says. “That’s nothing to be ashamed of either.”

“I just don’t want to go to college a virgin,” I blurt out. “I want to at least have some experience before I make a fool of myself in front of a guy.” I don’t know why the words come out except, I guess, I’ve always been able to trust him. So, even though I feel like an idiot, the trust just keeps me talking.

“Trust me,” he says, “You are not going to make a fool of yourself.”

I turn and look at him and catch him looking at my ass. His face has a weird look, almost hungry. He catches me looking at him and quickly looks away. I smile slightly as an idea begins to form in my head. It’s a damned crazy idea but the excitement of the thought kind of drives away a lot of the embarrassment and humiliation.

I turn over and lie on my back with my legs open slightly. I put my arms behind my head so my breasts strain against my shirt. It has the desired effect and though my stepdad tries to look only at my eyes, I see his gaze fall to my tits.

“I just wish I could find a guy—any guy—to help me,” I say, putting a slight lilt in my voice. “I just feel like things will be so much easier if someone fucks me.”

He looks at me with shock but recovers quickly. “That’s not a good idea, Reese.”

“But I need it!” I whine.

“No, you don’t.”

“Yes, I do!”

“Reese, your first time should be with someone special, not some random guy.”

“Why not?”