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More sobbing, more eating.

I don’t know why this is the thing that breaks me, but itdoes. The thing is it is what I signed up for. Christian was alwayshonest with me about it. It’s my own fault for thinking I could handle it.

There’s a good chance that I’m overly emotional aftergetting fired from Workin’ for Laughs,but right now, I’m going to blame my meltdown on not being able to go to Easterbrunch. I’ll be much calmer and reasonable later when I get to the stadium, butfor now, I’m going to eat this super-sized mistake with extra cheese.

I’ll deal with the fallout later.

As I’m eating, I realize I really should have stayed home,made some tea, and enjoyed a pit--tea party in my pajamas.

“There’s still time for that,” I murmur around a mouthful offries.

Something’s got to give. Clearly, I was a ticking time bombthat just detonated. I don’t like feeling like this. And as much as I know I’llbe better when it’s time for the game, it’s not. Not really. I’m friendly withthe wives, but I’m close to no one…

Ugh.

Same song, different verse.

Yeah. Something’s gotta change.

ChapterThirteen

I manage to survive what will forever be known as TheWorst Easter Ever.

But I don’t tell Christian how I feel.

Why?

Because he’s so darn happy.

So, I push my feelings down and chalk it up as a lessonlearned. I now know I need to set more realistic expectations for plans duringthe season.

It also helps when my agent calls the next day to tell meabout a fabulous opportunity.

“Ella, how fast can you get back to LA?”

“Um…that depends. Why?”

“Something interesting just came across my desk that I thinkyou would be perfect for,” she says. “I know you’ve been wanting to dovoice-over work, and this might be your shot.”

She’s right. Most of my work has been on camera, butvoice-over work has been very elusive. I’ve gotten close several times, butI’ve never booked a job.

“How exciting! What’s the role?”

She doesn’t respond right away. “I don’t have all thedetails in front of me at the moment, but I would love to talk to you about itin person. So, how soon can you be back here?”

“Tracy, come on,” I say with amusement. “You have to know a littlesomething about the role. I don’t want to waste your time or mine if it’s notsomething I want to do.”

Another pause. “Let’s just say this is something you’regoing to want to do, but no one knows about it yet. So, legally, my hands aretied. I can’t say what it is.” Then she laughs. “That sounded dramatic, right?Oh, my goodness. What I mean is, the showrunner isn’t giving out many details.It’s very hush-hush. But that tells me it has the potential to be huge!”

Okay, now I’m getting excited.

“I can be there by the end of the week. I can’t wait to tellChristian.”

“Oh. Oh, no, Ella. You can’t.”

“I can’t?”

“I mean, you can tell him you’re going to audition for avoice-over role, but other than that, you can’t talk about this.”