Page 35 of Love Lessons: Expanded Edition

A soft limit? he tentatively replied.

Dustin looked at him for the longest time, seeming to read secrets that Landon didn’t even know himself. Finally, he seemed to come to some conclusion. I won’t pressure you. But I would be honored if you would let me press that limit with you. If it’s too much, you can safeword, just like with anything else.

What would we do? He really wasn’t sure why he was so nervous.

We would put our bodies close to each other. I might rub your back or stroke your hair. And then we would sleep.

It sounded silly to have that as a soft limit, but Dustin seemed to be taking him seriously. That made it a little bit alright.

We can try it, he said bravely.

I’m proud of you, Dustin nodded. And Landon’s heart swelled even though he knew it shouldn’t. He’d had Doms say that to him before, but it always felt fake, like they were reading from a script.

But Dustin said he was proud of him, and he knew he really was. And that shouldn’t have felt so good, either.

Come here. Dustin opened his arms.

Slowly, Landon moved toward him, feeling awkward and not at all sexy. This was stupid. He moved the rest of the way in a rush, and then they got all tangled up in elbows and knees.

Dustin sorted him out and he let himself be moved, enjoying the feeling of Dustin taking control. Dustin lay on his back, Landon’s head on his shoulder but also propped on a pillow. Dustin’s hand moved gently along his back.

Good boy, Dustin signed.

And that felt good, too. Everything was so confusing right now.

Dustin started stroking Landon’s fingers, playing with the hand that lay over his chest. Then Dustin pressed a little kiss to his forehead.

It was sweet and deceptively calming.

Landon slowly felt his body relax, but his mind was still spinning. Eventually, Dustin’s motions stilled, and his breath grew heavy and even.

Landon wished he was sleeping, but inside he was tangled up in knots. Dustin couldn’t possibly want him, not really want him. Not in the long run. This was just Dustin’s style.

And it wasn’t like Landon wanted a boyfriend anyway.

But he let himself have one more nuzzle against Dustin’s shoulder. It wasn’t like he was ever going to get to do it again.