Page 173 of Lose You Twice

Then I take him into my mouth.

“Holy fucking shit,” Kai murmurs, bringing his hands to tangle in my hair. “Holy shit.”

Bringing my hand up, I wrap my fingers around his shaft as I take him farther into my mouth, sucking slightly. He groans but only lets me have my fun for a few more seconds before he pulls away and urges me up.

“Listen, I love that. A lot,” he pants. “But if I let you keep going, this is going to be over faster than it started.”

I giggle, and he places a quick kiss on my lips.

He lowers me onto his bed slowly, one hand braced beside my head, the other warm at my waist. His eyes move over my face first.

Always my face first.

Then lower, careful and hungry in a way that makes heat gather everywhere at once.

“You’re beautiful,” he says.

I look away, overwhelmed by the feelings swirling through me, but Kai catches my chin, gently bringing my eyes back to his. “Don’t hide from me.”

“I’m not.”

His thumb brushes my bottom lip. “Freckles.”

My breath shakes.

“I’m not,” I whisper again, and this time it is closer to the truth.

He kisses me again, taking all the worries out of my mind for the moment.

His mouth moves from mine to my jaw, then to my throat, and I feel everything as he takes his time. His movements are slow, torturous even. The sharp inhale of his breath when I arch into him. The quiet curse he presses to my skin when my hands slide over his shoulders and down his back, nails digging in just slightly.

He chuckles against my neck. “You’re trouble.”

“You knew that.”

“Yeah.” His mouth brushes mine again. “I forgot how much I liked it.”

The next kiss is more. It’s years of memory and weeks of restraint mixed together. It’s intoxicating.

His hand slides along my thigh, and my whole body reacts before I can pretend otherwise. His mouth curves against mine, and I tug at his hair until he lifts his head.

His hands reach the waistband of my panties, and he pauses there, pulling back to look at me before continuing.

My answer comes fast. “Yes.”

He slowly slides them off my body, leaving me bare beneath him. He takes his time bringing his gaze back to mine. Moving his hand to my thighs, he slips a finger in, eliciting a moan from me.

“So fucking wet for me, Freckles.” Kai removes his finger from me before bringing it to his mouth, tasting me, and I all but choke on air. “My favorite flavor.”

He moves to reach for the drawer of his nightstand, but I stop him.

“We don’t need a condom. I’m on birth control,” I tell him, suddenly feeling shy, and I can feel a slight blush working its way up my neck. “Or if you want to, that’s fine too. I just⁠—”

Kai silences me with a kiss before bringing his forehead to rest on mine. “You don’t have anything to worry about. I haven’t been with anyone.”

Shock bolts through me. I mean, I had hoped, but didn’t want to assume. “Really?”

The left side of his mouth turns up in a half grin. “Yeah, really. I couldn’t imagine myself with anyone but you, Freckles, and I mean that. You’re everything.”