No.
"Hey, when was your last period?" Jenny bit her apple, suddenly serious.
I stood there, dazed.
When?
I... I didn't remember.
My periods had never been regular anyway.
"Elena?" Jenny set down her apple and grabbed my arm. "You're white as a sheet. Don't tell me you really—"
"I'm getting a pregnancy test." I cut her off, grabbed my jacket, and bolted. "I'll be right back."
Half an hour later, I sat on the bathroom floor, back against the cold tile, staring at three pregnancy tests lined up neatly on the sink.
Every single one showed two lines.
I was pregnant.
Outside the door, Jenny's voice came carefully. "Elena? You okay? Want me to come in?"
"I'm fine." I heard myself say, voice floating like someone ease's. "Just... I need a minute."
"Okay." Jenny paused. "If you need help, you know I'm here. Just shout if you need anything."
Her footsteps faded.
I slowly stood and looked at myself in the mirror.
My stomach was still flat. No visible change. But I knew a life was growing inside.
A stranger's child.
My hand moved unconsciously to my belly. I remembered high school biology. If the father was a werewolf, abortion would be extremely dangerous. The mortality rate three times higher than normal.
You want to keep this child.
I startled. The voice in my head spoke again, certain and undeniable. It had been there for three months, popping up occasionally, snarling impatiently, telling me to find that man.
How was I supposed to find him? VIP client identities were confidential. And if he'd wanted to find me, he wouldn't have left that morning.
I couldn't help touching my belly, fingers stroking gently. I didn't know what this voice was, but it struck the deepest part of my heart. Yes, I wanted to keep it. Even though I knew it would be hard. But I couldn't let go.
This child would be my first family after Dad died. Would fill the void that had stretched from childhood until now.
The phone suddenly rang. I answered. "Hello?"
"Ms. Elena Windsor?" It was the school registrar. "Regarding your enrollment, the start date has been confirmed. Can you report?"
I walked out of the bathroom and stared at the acceptance letter on the table. Finally, voice hoarse: "Can I defer enrollment? I need to handle some things."
After a few seconds of silence, they agreed. I hung up, took a deep breath, heart pounding. I knew I'd made a decision. And this decision might turn my life upside down.
The pain came suddenly at three a.m., months later.
I crawled out of bed and woke Jenny. She helped me into the bathroom, laid towels in the tub, and helped me sit.