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He chuckles, but there isn’t any humor in the sound. “I doubt that.”

“You’re a part of us, Nico.” I sit back on my heels.

He looks away but slides his hand behind my neck and into my hair, which I left loose today. He massages my tight muscles, and I give a little moan.

“I love you, but we both know if I didn’t come back, you still would have been with all of them and fallen in love.” Nico returns his gaze to mine. “It’s fine. I’m here now, and I love you so much. It’s enough.”

My brow furrows. How can he think that? “Nico, you don’t believe that.”

His wry smile tells me he does. Fuck.

“We’re in high school.” I try to organize my thoughts. “We live with our parents and can’t be with each other twenty-four seven usually. Eventually we’ll figure out webcams again, but I don’t love any one of you more than the others. I don’t want any one of you more than the others. I need you all.”

He looks down at where I hold his cock, my hand unmoving. “It doesn’t matter, sunshine. We don’t have a lot of time here.”

“No, it does matter, Nico.” I scoot closer to him. “I love you. You aren’t some consolation prize. You made us whole. You made the guys see that I wasn’t just a conquest. Not just a prize to be won or a body to be conquered. Sure, they might have gotten there on their own, but at what cost?”

My chest rises and falls with every breath. “You weren’t here when this started. You didn’t see how they treated me. Yes, I wanted them, but I didn’t want to want them. They were using me. They didn’t even really want me. They wanted the last virgin. I was only an idea to them.”

I straighten and cup his jaw. “You wanted me. You were willing to share with the others to have me. Everything you did made it so that we could all be together. You made me real to them. Not just the only virgin left, but someone wanted. By you. You helped us get to a place where we could fall in love.”

Nico reaches out and brushes away the stray tear on my cheek with his thumb. He brings it to his lips.

I drag in a rough breath. Everything in me wants to just fuck and show him, but he needs to hear me.

“I love you, Nico. I need you. Right now it sucks that we can’t live together and be with each other all the time. It’s just part of our story though. Just one of the smaller hurdles to overcome. Next year we’ll live together. And hopefully from then on.”

“Is that what you want, sunshine?” He tightens his fingers in my hair. “To always be with all of us.”

“Yes, I do. It’s not going to be easy, but I need to be with you all to feel whole.” I swallow and run my hand over his cock, dragging my thumb over the tip. “Last night was good, but it was like we were missing a piece. We were missing you. I want you to get better. You need to make sure your mom is all right. I get that. It’s just that sometimes I’m greedy and want all my boys.”

He smirks. “This weekend, we’ll spend the weekend together with no worries of psychos trying to get to you. You mean the world to me, Harper. So do the guys. I love each and every one of you. It’s hard not to feel left out because I’m injured.

“I’m not playing football, so I’m not part of the team. I couldn’t save you because I would have been a liability. But I could protect you once we had you back. I could stay with you and hold your hand so you weren’t alone in the hospital. I just don’t want to be the guy who can wander off, and no one would miss me.”

“Fuck, Nico. I need you. I’d miss you. My whole life, you’ve been a part of me. I might not have realized how much I missed you until I got you back. But there was a hole in me that you filled.”

He smirks and I realize what I said.

“I’m being serious.” I shake my head, but can’t help the little smile that tugs at my lips.

“Sunshine, you’re kneeling at my feet naked with my cock in your hand. I’m having a hard time—literally.”

When I squeeze him gently, he moans.

“I love you.” His eyes search mine. “I know you love me, but it’s hard to imagine that you miss me when you have four other guys to keep you company.”

Fuck that. I grab the back of his neck and bring his head down to mine. “I need you, Nico.”

He groans and captures my lips with his. I open beneath him and we just kiss for a few minutes. My hand strokes his cock while my other hand grips his thigh. He pulls away.

His eyes are dark as he guides my head down to his hard cock. When I part my lips, he slides his cock inside along my tongue. Fuck, I love that feeling. I close around him and suck him as he uses his hold on my head to fuck in and out of my mouth.

“Slide your hand between your legs, sunshine.”

I do as he asks and hum around his cock at how good it feels.

“Show me how wet you are.” His words are dark and commanding.