AllFreeNovel
Share Us
My heart cracks in a way I feel to my bones.
“Me, too,” I admit.
“Is this okay? For us to feel this way and let each other go?” he asks the question I think I’ll ask myself for the rest of my life. I can only do what I think, at this moment, is right.
“Hmm,” he hums. I tremble from the wave of pure, unadulterated lust that slams into me, from just the way his breath brushes against my skin. Then, I feel the insistent press of his hard cock in my stomach. I can’t stop myself from pressing closer.
“I want to put that inside of you. I miss your pussy, Kal. We were only kids… and it’s still the best pussy I’ve ever had. And I could take such good care of it now. I know things.” His hands slide down my back and stop short of grabbing my ass. I clench my thighs in a failed effort to quiet the throb his touch is creating between them. I am so turned on and yet so sad at the same time.
“We can’t be friends,” he whispers in my ear, his lips skimming the sensitive shell of my ear before he drops his forehead onto my shoulder. And my heart hurts so profoundly because I know he’s right.
I know when he comes to his senses, sobers up, or whatever, that he’ll regret this and will never do it again.
“I know,” I whisper.
“Fuuuuuuck. I don’t want to let you go. Not again. Not after all this time. Leave him, Kal.” He grates, his lips lingers on the side of my face.
I’ve never been more tempted in my life. The crush of bodies on the dance floor makes a nice camouflage, but we’re being very reckless… holding each other this close in public. Neither one of us can afford to be seen. Neither of us seems to care.
This time his lips dust the fine hairs at my temple. “What if we’re supposed to be together? What if it was my baby you had growing inside of you? It’s my last name you should have been getting ready to take. My house, you come home to. Me, you’re going home with. My dick you’re riding until you come all over it.” He growls, hot and angry in my ear. I want to respond by shouting “yes.” After
each sentence. I am completely undone and I feel the loss of him and our chance so keenly.
“Remi… please don’t.” I hug him and want so badly to cry. And then, he goes and guarantees that I will leave there knowing exactly what I’ve missed.
“I’m so in love with you. So, so, in love.”
My heart constricts and then starts to race.
He presses his nose into my hair and wraps me tightly in his arms.
“I’ll miss you, Will.” He says like he’s about to let me go and I start to panic.
I want to stay like this. In his arms. The rebel in me hopes that Paul sees us.
But, the girl who grew up with her chaotic mother showing her just what life as a single parent looked like wins.
I’ve made my choice.
I pull out of his embrace and shake my head.
“Remi, I’m sorry.”
I can’t read his eyes, but I can feel his disappointment and his anger. It permeates the space between us and mingles with mine. He leans forward and down so that his lips are at my ear.
“For me, it’s always been you.” My heart aches and I bite back a whimper. He skims his fingers down my arms. “If you change your mind… you want to run away from it all, now, later, ever—say the word. I’ll be waiting.” And then he presses a kiss to my cheek, lets me go and walks away.
21
ECLIPSE
REMI
The morning after the wedding has been a bleak one. The guests are gone. Kal is gone. I’m on autopilot now. If I stop to think about yesterday, I’ll lose my shit. I have never felt so sick to my stomach as I did when Kal said she was pregnant.
She was right that I’d moved on, too. But, I didn’t realize until yesterday, when it was too late, that I’d been carrying an ember of hope inside me that somehow, one day, we’d get it right.
But just like I had when I was a boy, I overestimated how much control I’d have over what happened between us.
