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“Did he pull them down?”
“Yes.” This was sounding worse by the minute.
“Then what else?” Will asked.
“He spanked me, first with his hand each time, then with a hairbrush.”
“And it hurt?”
“Very much.”
“Did you see the results?”
“He made me stand in front of the mirror, and then in the corner until the red faded away.”
“And it was red?” he asked. He was so cold on the surface, and so hot on the inside. I could see the fire of his anger settling on a low simmer.
“Yes, very.”
“So it aroused you?”
I hate that question. How could I answer? “Some.”
“Tell me about that.”
“I don’t know how to explain it, but yes, it was arousing. Just as I was aroused by the things Reggie had me do.”
“So what was so “awful” about it?”
I think it was a mistake to have told him it was awful, because on one level it wasn’t awful at all. The guilt I was feeling at the moment was awful, the sneaking around, the lying, the whole way I’d compromised our relationship, that was awful; but I still did it, and on one level I enjoyed the hell out of it. “It’s awful not being honest with you,” I replied, trying to remain true to my feelings.
“But the experience wasn’t awful. You liked being spanked by him?”
“It’s hard to explain,” I said, trying a little whining, hoping he’d be understanding.
He wasn’t. He looked at me with the same cold, stern, fiery-eyed face. “So explain, I can wait.”
“I did like the spanking, I liked the feeling, and yes it aroused me. It wasn’t exactly what I wanted. He was a stranger and it wasn’t personal. And I guess this third time, it just didn’t seem quite right.”
“Why’s that?”
I hedged.
“Did you have sex?” Will asked.
The question was like a thunderbolt. I wanted to deny it but how could I? If I lied, it would be obvious to Will.
“Yes.”
“Every time?” he asked.
“Oh no! Just this last time.”
“Tell me about it.”
“About the sex?”
“I shouldn’t have to repeat myself,” he said. His annoyance with my hesitation was hardly disguised. We were piling hurt on top of hurt, I hated seeing that in Will’s eyes, but by now there was no way to avoid it.
