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“I was born with it. Do you really want to spend your entire session discussing me? Because honestly, that would be quite a waste of a favor, and my favors do not come cheap.”
“I just thought...you seemed so nice...”
“You are a breath of fresh air. Ms. Pope needs that.”
“Ms. Pope?”
“That is not something we will discuss. Now, I will respond to your comment, then we shall begin, understand?” She waited for Stacy to nod. “I am not nice. At best I am neutral. I can be nice. I can be a nightmare. But what I choose to be is left completely up to me, and how I feel others believe to be treated. That answer will have to do for you, because now we will begin, or you can leave. Now, what would you like to know?”
“Um, I guess I would like....can you give me any insight on myself, I guess? I’m really confused.”
“About who you are?”
“Yes. There have been so many changes in my life...I guess if you can help me understand a little of what’s going on, I would really appreciate that. And it doesn’t seem fair of me to ask you about other people, and honestly, you will probably just tell me that you can’t answer those questions anyway, so yes, I would like any insight you can give me about myself.”
Renee nodded and produced a deck of cards. She instantly began shuffling them as Stacy watched. She didn’t look as old as she had in the waiting room, and she wondered if it was a trick of the lighting or just part of the persona she developed while she was working.
Cards were laid out in a manner she didn’t understand, and despite the expressions that crossed Renee’s face, Stacy didn’t ask questions.
“You have experienced loss. Whether you believe it or not, you are grieving for it. You feel rejected. So much so that you do not see the new love, new opportunity that is waiting at your door. You are too deep in your fear and insecurity.” Renee’s gaze shifted from the cards to her, and she paused. “Good, you will wait until the reading is done for questions.”
“This new lover is strong, though. His feelings...he won’t be denied. He will not force himself on you, but he does fight for what he wants. And he wants you.”
Stacy blushed as she remembered their encounter in the conference room. He pushed her, farther than anyone else ever had. But she had no doubt Demetri would have stopped if she’d told him to. Just as she had no doubt that he was the lover Renee referred to.
“Two cards fell for this position. It is what holds you back. You feel you are being seduced, and wonder if this is what you want. Should you listen to your mind or simply enjoy the new and wonderful things that are happening to you? But the second card speaks to your fear on becoming drunk on the feelings and sensations. On losing yourself in them. That is good. It is always good to be cautious when dealing with new things, but there is also being too cautious. You are slowly allowing yourself to become more confident though. You are learning to listen to yourself, to trust yourself. This is very good.” She pointed to the next card.
“But still you worry. You worry that your knight simply desires to sweep you off your feet. That you are simply his next adventure.” She leaned forward. “You aren’t, you know. But I can understand why you might feel that way.”
Stacy opened her mouth, then closed it. Renee said there would be time to ask questions afterwards.
“In the past you have always had to be the understanding one. The one who rearranged your schedule, your needs, your desires. Always the one who helped other people. Be careful of this crutch. Because it could affect your future. Are you going to be the subservient girl who allows your lover to do anything he wants to you, no matter how it makes you feel? Or will you turn into the woman watching him as he does that, saddened by the fact that the desire for you is gone? This is your potential future, especially if you allow yourself to continue doing what is safe. Sometimes in life you have to take chances. Risk getting lost, or hurt.
“Which is part of your fear, because this man is moving fast. Things are going much faster than you ever expected. You wonder if things continue moving this fast, will they burn out? Will he say goodbye, rushing off to the next adventure, and if he does, will he even bother to say goodbye first?
“Your friends feel your fear and pain. They want you to have a man who will worship you. One they know will treat you right and cater to your needs, but you are holding on, you refuse to relax your guard. It’s as though you feel like if you don’t hold on to it tight, with an iron grip, you will fall. You have the stars, you have the chance for all your dreams to come true, but there is still a sense of longing. As though you don’t believe in your luck, that it’s really happening.
“The final outcome is that you have your King. You may sit at your lover’s feet, but it’s because you want to be there. It’s not in the derogatory manner of before. You can tell that because no matter what is going on, he can’t keep his hands off of you. His face may be an implacable mask, but sometimes you will both need to wear a mask. You can tell no matter what is going on, you are his world because it’s as though he can’t help himself, he has to be there with you. Almost as though he has to reassure himself that you are real.
“These cards are extra, but they really help give insight. There is punishment coming. But are you the one being punished, or the one looking on? Is it what you want and can you live with yourself? But there is also a lot of passion. This one reinforces the outcome. You will not be able to get enough of your lover, the passion between the two of you will be tangible, it isn’t something that you can hide—neither of you. Nor should you!” Renee looked up at her. “Now is the time to ask questions. Though I must say before you begin, I think it is wonderful that Demetri has found you as well. Though I can understand where he may come across as overwhelming at times.”
“How did you....never mind. Everyone seems to know it’s him. I guess it really is a small community.” Stacy looked at Renee again with a small smile on her face and slapped her forehead. “And, well, duh, you’re psychic.”
“Do you have any questions?”
“I don’t think so. I mean, it all really makes sense to me. I guess I really am just scared to let go sometimes. But sometimes it feels like if I do let go, all I’m going to do is spiral and fall and never be able to stand back up. And punishment does seem to be the one thing that looms over what could be my fairytale...well, if not my ending, at least my Prince Charming. Even if it is just for now...” She left that statement open, hoping Renee might fill her in on a few more details.
“I’m a little quicker than that. And that answer you can only get from two people, and neither of them are me. Honey, if you want a happy ending, especially with Demetri, it’s up to you and him to figure out how to do that.” She pulled her giant crystal ball a little closer. “But...”Renee looked deep into it. “I see a man, but his image is flickering. He’s one person, but not the person you thought. I see a string of women hanging on him. The last one is trying to hold him tighter. This one has her own agenda, and she isn’t letting him slip away until she’s gotten everything she wants.”
“Wow, you really see all that in there?”
“Not really, but it does help me focus. The crystal lets me pay more attention to my inner eye,” Renee chuckled. “But that one is just between us.”
“Yes, ma’am!”
She laughed again. “Honey, you are going to be fine. The only person holding you back is you. Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith.”
“What if there’s no net?”
