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The light turned, and Maddy ran the rest of the way toward school.
Entering the hall felt almost exactly like arriving at the party last night. Everybody stared. Except it was worse, because at least last night she was somewhere she didn’t belong. Now she was in one of the few places she did belong, and people were gazing at her like some strange creature. Like a freak. It was like she didn’t belong anywhere anymore. As she walked, Maddy became aware of the fact that it was actually growing quieter. Conversations died as she passed. People were hushing and pointing. Maddy could hear the sound of her own feet on the linoleum. With her arrival, the usually loud and chaotic hallway of Angel City High had gone dead silent.
She hurried numbly to her locker. Gwen wasn’t there, which was unusual. She was avoiding her, Maddy realized. The possibility of just how badly she might have hurt Gwen was beginning to form in her mind. Pulling out her books, she tried to ignore the fact that most people were still staring at her. It felt incredibly lonely. The bell rang, mercifully, and Maddy decided she would try to apologize to Gwen at lunch. If she could find her, that was.
The school day that followed was tense, awkward, and embarrassing. In English, Maddy discovered there was a test she had totally forgotten about. In the middle of struggling through an essay, a phone rang. It was loud and obnoxious, but certainly sounded futuristic and expensive. Then it hit her. It was her Blackberry Miracle.
“Maddy, you know the rules,” Mrs. Stinchfield scolded. “Phones need to be off during class.” As Maddy fumbled for the Berry, it gave a “new voice mail” chime. Mrs. Stinchfield glared. “You may be a celebrity in the world now, Ms. Montgomery, but in my classroom, you’re still just a student.”
Maddy silenced the phone as best she knew how. After that, she couldn’t focus on the exam. When the lunch bell rang, she had to turn the test in incomplete.
The hall was unusually quiet again, but this time she could hear excited whispers as she passed. People were reading their phones and throwing not-so-subtle glances at her. She didn’t even want to think about what the blogs were saying about last night. Or the incident on the porch this morning. And she could only hope Uncle Kevin didn’t notice anything on ANN. When she rounded the corner, she saw Gwen at her locker, quickly slamming it and hurrying to escape. She saw Maddy and paused, as if caught. Then she folded her arms over her chest, leaned against the bank of lockers, and tapped her heel in defiance.
“Hey—” Maddy began timidly as she walked up. That was all it took.
“Yes, I worship him,” Gwen blurted, “yes, I would probably worship his dirty laundry, but you didn’t have to lie to me about it.”
“I know, I was wrong—”
“What have I ever kept from you, Maddy? Even that time I made out with Brandon Davis while he was going out with Emily, I told you.” Maddy withered under her friend’s furious stare. “I had to find out from Samantha. In a text. My own best friend couldn’t even tell me the truth! Some friend,” she scoffed.
She was right, Maddy thought. Absolutely right. Gwen could be a walking parody of herself sometimes, but she was Maddy’s friend. And she had always been a good one—the only one, really. And Maddy had blatantly lied to her.
“I don’t know what to say, Gwen,” Maddy said, shamefaced. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
Gwen sniffed. “So what, you’re Jackson Godspeed’s girlfriend now?”
“No, that’s all over,” Maddy said. “I don’t know what I was thinking.”
Gwen dabbed a finger to her running mascara. “Well, I don’t know what you were thinking either, Maddy.” And with that, she flipped her hair and was gone.
Maddy felt the eyes of the entire hallway crawling over her skin as she spun the dial of her lock. They had probably heard the whole thing. Was this the way it was going to be now? Was this what she had to look forward to for every remaining day of her senior year? All Maddy could think about was escaping. Her eyes drifted to a nearby stairwell door, and she ran for it.
In the stairwell, she stood gasping for breath. Was her life ruined? Probably not. But what else did she expect to happen when she agreed to go out with Jackson Godspeed? The realization was slow, and bitter. She had been Angelstruck. She slid down and sat on the steps. He had walked into the diner and she had turned into a silly, Angelstruck little girl. And she used to make fun of Gwen for being obsessed? She felt like such a fool.
“Spending some time with the Angels, huh?” a voice echoed above her. Maddy looked up.
It was Tyler. He was standing with Ethan, giving Maddy a dirty look. Her face flushed red in embarrassment as she remembered the conversation he’d been having in the commons about Angels. What Tyler—what Ethan!—must think of her right now.
“Go on, I’ll catch up,” Ethan said to him. Tyler slowly walked into the hall.
Ethan came down and sat next to her on the step. He laughed a little, looking at Maddy with a friendly, comfortable expression. “How’s that working out for you—hanging out with the Angels, I mean?”
Maddy shook her head, unable to meet his gaze. With Gwen she had felt like a backstabber. Now with Ethan, remembering their conversation in the diner, she felt like a hypocrite.
“Don’t worry, I’m not Tyler. I’m not giving you a hard time, promise. It was a little surprising when I heard about it, though, ’cause you didn’t seem like the kind of girl who would get mixed up with those guys.”
“I’m not,” Maddy said, her eyes flashing. “Nothing happened. And it’s over now. He was . . .” She trailed off.
“A jerk?” Ethan offered. Maddy looked at him, surprised. “Conceited? Arrogant? Clueless about how the real world works? Something like that?”
“. . . Yeah,” Maddy said quietly.
Ethan gave her a reassuring smile. “They’re not who you think they are, are they?”
“No.” Maddy shook her head. “They’re not.” She looked down at her shoes again. “I feel like s
uch a joke.”
