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“I don’t want to,” she says stubbornly.
I crawl over her until she’s resting on her elbows, leaning back, a triumphant look in her eyes. “Kiss yourself better.”
“I’d much rather you do it,” I murmur as I lean down and capture her lips in a kiss that is the farthest thing from gentle. It’s raw, wild and untamed.
I drink her in with a desperation I didn’t know I had.
She’s still leaning back on the bed and she kisses me back with a fervent hunger.
I wind one hand in the back of her hair, keeping her in place as I slant my mouth over hers, taking control of the kiss, while my other hand is on the bed, supporting me since I don’t want to crush her under me.
I lick along her lips and she parts them, and then my tongue is in her mouth as I taste her essence, explore her, swallow her moans. Her quiet gasp when she reaches out to me, to circle her arms around my neck to bring me closer ? the way she falls back on the bed, her hair forming a halo around her head ? it’s driving me insane.
I want more of her.
I want everything she has to give and more.
When we part for air, her chest is heaving, her lips swollen, and she looks torn. “I- I don’t.”
I can see it in her eyes, the uncertainty, the desire, the need, the yearning. It’s like my thoughts are being reflected in her.
This wasn’t the outcome I had expected. Neither had she, it seems.
She looks dazed and I plant another kiss on her lips, before pulling her into a sitting position, chuckling. “I can see this is going too fast for you.”
She lets me pull her up, then she rubs her hands over her thighs, scrunching up the dress which shimmers in the light at the movement, nervousness radiating from her. “It’s not that. When you left, we didn’t – I loved you.” She meets my gaze, head on. “I was in love with you.”
Her quiet confession has my breath catching, and then she lowers her pensive gaze to the carpet, making me ask, my chest tight, “And now?”
Her lips part as she tries to formulate a reply, “Now, I’ve started falling in love with Caleb Starr. But I can’t help but think whether it’s because of everything that you’ve been doing for me, the grand gestures, the kindness, the way you treat me in general, the smiles you give me, ones you only give to me. Was any of that the real you or just your manipulations?”
I take her hand. “I did, manipulate you, that is… I tried to. But you saw through most of them. And how I was with you that is who I am, under all these suits and glamor. With you, I was always myself. I couldn’t be anyone else. You bring it out in me. At first, I just wanted to provide for you and then at some point, I realized that it had gone far beyond that. I fell for you. I fell in love with you and then I tried to win you over.”
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sp; She cracks a hesitant smile. “Didn’t make it easy for you, did I?”
I chuckle. “You were a pain in the ass.”
“I won’t apologize for that.” She narrows her eyes at me.
I kiss the back of her hand, my amber eyes on her hazel ones, making her flush. “I would never ask you to.”
She pulls away and looks annoyed. “You’ve become very smooth, haven’t you? Back then, getting you to say more than one sentence was difficult. And now, you don’t shut up.”
I laugh. “Not true. I do give you time to get in a word in yourself.”
She smacks me in the chest. “See. You don’t shut up. And now you say fancy things and stuff.”
I grasp her wrist when she reaches out to hit me again.
Sadistic little thing.
I pull her into my body and tuck her by my side like I used to do when we were kids.
She settles in, fitting like a piece of puzzle. After a few seconds, she asks in an almost child-like manner, “Do you really love me?”
“I’d say yes, but then you’d tell me to shut up,” I say, smirking.
