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His phone rings and he checks the number. “It’s Mia. Why’s she calling me?”
“Do you want to pick it up?”
“No,” he says and places the phone down. He checks the time. “But I do have to get back soon. I don’t want Teague to be on his own until he…you know…gets better.”
“Sure,” I say, hoping I am able to keep a straight face so the disappointment doesn’t show. We finish dinner and head outside the restaurant.
“Thanks for dinner,” Sebastian says.
I know I can’t stop myself any longer. I just grab Sebastian by the shoulders and pull him closer, place my mouth on his and kiss him. He breaks away and shoves at me. “What the fuck, Liam!” he says. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
“Sebastian,” I say. “Quit the act, okay? I know.”
“You know?”
“I’ve kissed straight guys,” I say. “And that wasn’t a straight guy kiss, Sebastian. Straight guys don’t lean in and kiss you back before they push you away. They get right to the pushing away part.”
He glares at me for a second, and then turns around and starts walking towards his car.
“What’s the matter, Sebastian?” I say. “Afraid people are going to think of you as a freak? Well, newsflash, Sebastian. People already know you’re a freak because you’ve never gone out with a woman your entire life!”
Sebastian stops and turns to face me. There are tears in his eyes. “Fuck you, Liam. You think you know everything, don’t you? That you’ve got people down to a science? Well, you know what I think? I think you’re just too damn full of yourself.”
I walk up to him, expecting him to leave but he doesn’t. “Sebastian,” he says. “Your whole life has been a lie. You’ve been keeping your feelings bottled up because you feel the need to hide this truth from everyone. Well, you don’t have to hide it from me. Please. Let me be that one person that you can be yourself with.”
He’s listening so I keep going. “Sebastian,” I say, taking a risk and cupping his face with my hands and he doesn’t even push me away this time. “We have something. You know we do. I care about you, deeply; you’re not some one night stand for me Sebastian!”
“You don’t even know me,” he says. “We barely met two days ago.”
“We’ve known each other a lot longer than that,” I say. “Two years, give or take.”
“I don’t understand—”
I take my hands off his face and reach into pockets, search for a letter. Once I find it, I hand it over to him.
“What’s this?” he asks, opening the letter and reading the contents.
“This is the last letter I was going to send you,” I say. “I was going to end it because you never gave me an answer to my request to meet you.”
He looks up at me. “Then why didn’t you?”
I pause.
“Because,” I say. “Once I saw you, at the party, I couldn’t stop myself. I realized that day that I couldn’t just let you go, that I had to try harder.”
“I need to go home,” he says.
I kiss him again and this time he kisses me back with passion, not even caring that people are watching. But just when I think I’ve made some headway, he pulls away again. “I’m sorry, Liam. I…I’m not strong enough.”
“I can be strong for the both of us,” I say.
He stands there, our faces so close but then he just starts walking away again and I’m suddenly lost and alone.
Frightened.
And before I can convince him to rethink this, he’s already gone.
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