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But I have to consider my dad. At this point, there’s still a possibility that I could turn back. Ethan would understand if I asked him to sweep this under the rug, to never let my dad know what happened between us. It would break my heart, but I could try to do it to save my dad the pain of what we did behind his back.
But what would that do to me? To Ethan? Do we really deserve to spend the rest of our days alone, pining for one another, just because my dad wouldn’t approve? If we both want this, then why should he stand in the way of our happiness?
I sigh deeply. I know why. Because he has given us both everything in life. He’s a good person. He helped Ethan find his feet when no one else was there to support him as a teenager. He has raised me single-handedly, doing everything to make me happy, loved me with his whole heart. This thing between me and Ethan…it’s selfish. It’s self-indulgent. It’s cruel toward my dad. I feel my cheeks heating up. Are we really going to be the ones to hurt him like that?
Ethan stirs beside me and I hold my breath. I feel his strong arms grapple for me sleepily, pulling me into him. Even though he’s only just waking up, his cock hardens as it presses against my leg. I blush, but I’m also completely turned on.
I’m the only person on earth who can make him hard, just like he’s the only one who can make me wet. Is it selfish to want to indulge in this forever?
“Good morning, beautiful,” he growls, his warm breath on my neck causing my skin to break out in goosebumps. His hand grabs my ass, squeezing it as he pulls me closer to him. I know exactly where this is going. He wants to take this all the way now. Finish what we started last night.
“Don’t,” I whisper. He pulls back in shock, his eyes full of confusion and deep rooted lust.
“Why?” he asks, genuinely curious. “Don’t you want to finish what we started?”
“Yes, I do. More than anything. But that’s the problem. We shouldn’t. We can’t.”
“August, don’t do this to yourself. You deserve to be happy,” he says firmly, his eyes roaming over my face. “And you know it’s impossible for me to resist you. I can’t hold back from you any longer and I’m not sure I want to.”
“You have to,” I whisper, pulling away from him with tears in my eyes. This is the last thing I want to do, but I have to. I can’t be the one to break my dad’s heart. Not when he’s always been so good to me. To Ethan. It wouldn’t be fair.
“August,” he growls. “If you want me to stop, then I’ll make myself, but how can you walk away from what we have? I know you felt it too last night. The connection between us.”
“I did. I’ve felt it since I was sixteen, Ethan. That’s when I fell for you. I’ve spent every day since then dreaming of this moment. Of waking up beside you and having you want me the way I want you, but don’t you see? This is why it was a fantasy. No part of me ever truly believed I’d get this far. I didn’t have to consider how it would make my life implode. And now, I can’t do it. I want it so much it feels like I’ll die without it…but that’s the price I have to pay.”
“Don’t do this,” Ethan pleads. “You’re a woman now, August. You can make your own decisions. He shouldn’t come into it.”
“But you know it’s more complicated than that,” I whisper, my lip trembling. “You know that he’d do anything for us. You know he’s a better person than us. And that’s why we have to make a sacrifice. We have to give up what we want the most because if we don’t, we’ll destroy the trust we have with the one person alive who has always looked out for us. Can you bear it? Because I don’t think I can.”
Ethan’s eyes are full of frustration. He knows I’m talking sense, but neither one of us wants me to be right. If it feels like it’s impossible to walk away now when we’re just getting started. When we’re so close to getting what we both want so desperately.
But I get out of bed and start to dress. He watches me with hunger in his eyes, breathing hard. I can tell he’s holding himself back, trying to do the right thing and honor my decision. I know it’s unfair. I know it’s painful for us both, and that it’s cruel of me to try and walk away without giving Ethan a say in this.
