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'After that he obviously felt that the honour of the house was at stake.'
The floor was less crowded than it had been. Many of the lower staff and the men did not know how to perform this dashing and fashionable dance, but all were interested. Rowan felt she was on stage. 'They are staring,' she whispered. 'It is most disconcerting.'
'It is because you are so beautiful,' he replied, not troubling to lower his voice.
Mercifully the band struck up to save her blushes and habit took over. Smiling serenely, as though there was nothing in the slightest unsettling about being held close to a man and swept around the floor in his control, their bodies swooping and gliding, Rowan let her feet follow the steps without conscious thought.
Every instinct, every sense, was focused on the man who held her. He was a good dancer-she had expected it from the way he moved. He led with authority, but without force. And he was close, so very close, and intent on nothing but her. Rowan drowned in his eyes, surrendered to his strength and lived only in that moment.
When the set finished and he led her off the floor she knew she was trembling with desire, dazzled with enchantment and quite hopelessly in love.
'Daisy? Are you all right?' He bent over her as they reached the edge of the floor.
'No,' she answered, meeting his gaze frankly. 'I am not all right. Not at all.'
He knew she was not referring to the heat, nor to any possible over-exertion on the dance floor. 'Would champagne help?'
'It can hardly make it any worse,' she murmured, half joking.
The supper room had been set with small tables, many already filling up with family groups or pairs of friends. Lucas sat her at an empty one, removed all but one other chair, and vanished into the throng. When he returned with two plates, a waiter at his heels with a whole bottle of champagne and glasses, she had emerged from her daze and was uncomfortably aware that her solitary state was attracting attention.
'They are still staring.'
'The women are jealous of your looks, the men are hating me.' He shrugged. 'I have acquired the very last lobster patties: please tell me you like them. I had to run the gauntlet of the doctor's wife to get them from under her nose.'
'I love lobster, thank you.' It was a welcome distraction.
'Really? You eat it much?'
Lord! Dressers were hardly likely to acquire a taste for such delicacies. 'Vienna,' she said airily. 'They were two a penny.' He looked sceptical. 'The Congress- such a demand for them, you see.'
'Why is it that you do not trust me, Daisy?'
'I…' He was regarding her steadily over the rim of his glass. She focused on the spiralling bubbles in the straw-coloured liquid. So he knew she was lying about her past. 'I cannot… It is too complicated. It is not all my secret.'
'Is Daisy your real name?'
'No.' She wondered why he smiled and counterattacked. 'Why do you not trust me? And is Lucas your realname?'
'Because it is too complicated, and not all my own secret. And, yes, it is my name.' He picked up a lobster patty and paused with it halfway to his mouth. 'Has the magic gone now we have stopped pretending?'
'No.' She took a morsel and chewed, her brain spinning. What to do? Lucas sat, apparently content to watch her in silence while she swallowed and took a sip of the champagne. She loved him and there was no future for it, whatever he felt-whether he was a valet, an estate manager or a Bow Street Runner. That was clear.
It was almost a relief how clear it was. There was no possibility of agonising about how to get around it, wondering if there was some way to make a miracle happen. They didn't happen. Not even at Christmas. She knew what she had to do.
'I love you,' she said, holding his gaze so that she saw the way his pupils widened until his eyes were almost black, heard the sharp intake of his breath.
'I love you, too.' He said it as clearly and as calmly as she had, and the very simplicity convinced her.
'I cannot marry you,' she added, as though they had been discussing going for a walk.
'Nor I you.'
There was pain there, behind the three simple words. Pain he was not letting show on his face-just as she would not betray the realisation that something inside was cracking open into a scar that would last a lifetime.
'Make love to me.' Rowan was not sure whether it was a question, a plea or a demand. It was only when she had said it that she saw from his face just how shocking her words were.
He leant forward to refill her glass, the action bringing his head close to hers. 'You are a virgin, are you not?' His voice was husky. Desire? Regret? Horror at her suggestion? 'I cannot do it.'
