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He hung his head over the wastebasket, one hand trembling on his temple. His long neck looked like a bent swan’s.
“You can’t walk out of here with that kind of misunderstanding, Joey. Do you hear me? This isn’t a barter situation. Are you listening to me? Look at me.”
But he continued to stare between his legs, his eyes glazed and dull, focused inward on his own pain.
THAT EVENING, ELEVEN hours after Joey Gouza was kicked loose from custody, someone tried to garrote Weldon Sonnier in his boathouse with a strand of piano wire.
CHAPTER 13
THE AA MEETING ROOM upstairs in the Episcopalian church is foul with cigarette smoke. On the walls are framed photographs of our founders, whom we still affectionately call Dr. Bob and Bill W., as though their anonymity need be protected even in death. Also on the wall are the twelve steps of AA recovery and the simple two axioms that we attempt to live by: ONE DAY AT A TIME and EASY DOES IT. The meeting is over now, and volunteers are washing coffee cups, emptying ashtrays, and wiping down the tables. I sit by a big floor fan that is blowing the smoke out the windows into the early-morning air. My AA sponsor, Tee Neg, who looks like a mulatto, sits across from me. Before he bought the bar and poolroom that he now owns on East Main, he was a pipeliner and oil-field roughneck, and three fingers on his right hand were snipped off by a drilling chain. He’s uneducated, can barely read and write, but he’s tough-minded and intelligent and unfailing in his loyalty to me.
“You mad at somet’ing again, Dave. That ain’t good,” he says.
“I’m not mad.”
“We get drunk at somebody. Or maybe at somet’ing. That’s the way it works. It’s them resentments mess us up. Don’t be telling me different, no.”
“I know that, Tee Neg.”
“It ain’t worrying about Bootsie this time. It’s somet’ing else, ain’t it?”
“Maybe.”
“You want to know what I t’ink’s on your mind, podna?”
“I have a feeling you’re going to tell me, anyway.”
“You’re studying on this case all the time. You t’ink that’s it, but it ain’t. You bothered by the way t’ings are, the way we got trouble with the colored people all the time, you bothered ’cause it ain’t like it used to be. You want sout’ Lou’sana to be like it was when you and me and yo’ daddy went all day and went everywhere and never spoke one word of English. You walk away when you hear white people talking bad about them Negro, like that bad feeling ain’t in their hearts. But you keep pretend it’s like it used to be, Dave, that these bad t’ings ain’t in white people’s hearts, then you gonna be walking away the rest of yo’ life.”
“That doesn’t mean I’m going to get drunk over it.”
“I had seven years sobriety, me. Then I started studying on them fingers I left on that drill pipe. I’d get up with it in the morning, just like you wake up with an ugly, mean woman. I’d drag it around with me all day. I’d look at them pink stumps till they’d start throbbing. Then I went fishing one afternoon, went into a colored man’s bait store to buy some shiners, told that man I was gonna catch me a hunnerd sac-a-lait befo’ the sun get behind them willow tree. Then I told him I changed my mind, just give me a quart of whiskey and don’t bother about no shiners. I got drunk five years. Then I spent one in the penitentiary. Get mad about what you can’t change and maybe you’ll get to do just what Tee Neg done.”
He looks at me reflectively and rubs his palms in a circular motion on his thighs. I twirl my coffee cup on my finger, then one of the cleanup volunteers reaches down and takes it from me.
“That doesn’t mean you always have to like what you see around you,” I say.
“It don’t mean you got to be miserable about it, neither.”
“I’m not miserable, Tee Neg. Give it a break, will you?”
“It ain’t never gonna be the same, Dave. That world we grown up in, it’s gone. Pa’ti avec le vent, podna.”
I look down from the window at the brick-paved street in the morning’s blue light, the colonnades over the sidewalks, a black man pushing a wooden cart laden with strawberries from under the overhang of a dark green oak tree. The scene looks like a postcard mailed from the nineteenth century.
I WENT OUT to Weldon’s home on Bayou Teche at 9 A.M. the morning after he was attacked in his boathouse. When he opened the door he was dressed in Levi’s, a pair of old tennis shoes, and a T-shirt. A folded baseball glove protruded from his back pocket.
“You’re headed for a game or something?” I asked.
A red welt ran around his throat, like half of a necklace.
“I’ve got an apple basket nailed up on the barn wall,” he said. “I like to see if my fork ball’s still got a hop on it.”
“You’ve been throwing a few?”
“About two hours’ worth. It beats smoking cigarettes or fooling around with early-morning booze.”
“How close was it?” I said.
