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Here he comes, she thinks.
Through the awning.
It’s Mr. Abernethy, the principal of her high school.
11:02 p.m.
Her vision defrosts. The lab-coated woman has moved into the room and is staring at her.
Janie stares back, just to freak her out. She looks around the room at the others who sit there, waiting for their names to be called. They all look at the floor as her gaze passes from one to the next. She knows what they’re thinking. There’s no way they want to be in that room with me, the freak.
Janie sets her jaw.
She’s tired of crying.
Refuses to make any further scenes.
When the feeling returns to her fingers and feet, she stands up, grabs her coat and overnight bag, and stumbles to the door.
Her voice is hoarse when she turns to speak to the receptionist. “Sorry. I’m not doing this.” She goes outside into the parking lot. The air is crisp, and she sucks it into her lungs.
The woman in the lab coat chases out the door after her. “Miss?”
Janie keeps walking. Tosses her bag back into the car.
Over her shoulder, she yells, “I said, I’m not doing this.”
She climbs behind the wheel. Leaves the lab-coated woman standing there as she drives away. “There has to be another way, Ethel,” she says. “You understand me, don’t you sweetheart.”
Ethel purrs mournfully.
11:23 p.m.
Janie pulls into her driveway after the incident in the sleep study waiting room. Wonders if she should have given it a try. But there is no way on earth she wants to know what her principal, Mr. Abernethy, dreams about.
Ew.
Ew, ew, ew.
This is not the right way to fix it, she decides. But what is the right way? Because it’s time.
Time to stop crying, time to get her act together and do something. Time to move beyond the pity party.
Before she loses her mind.
Because there’s no way on earth she’s going to make it through college unless she grows some serious ovaries and turns this train wreck around.
She goes into the house and digs through her papers on her bedside table. She finds it—Miss Stubin’s note. Reads it again.
Dear Janie,
Thank you for my dreams.
From one catcher to another,
Martha Stubin
P.S. You have more power than you think.
11:36 p.m.
What does it mean?
11:39 p.m.
She still doesn’t know.
11:58 p.m.
Nope.
November 26, 2005, 9:59 a.m.
Janie waits at the door of the public library. When it opens for business, she meanders through the nonfiction section. Self-help. Dreams.
She pulls all six books from the shelf, finds a back corner table, and reads.
When a group of sleepy-looking students comes in and sets up at a nearby table, she moves to a different section of the library.
And she waits patiently for the computer in the corner to open up. Spends an hour there. She can’t believe what she finds with Google’s help.
Of course, there’s no information on people like her. But it’s a start.
5:01 p.m.
With four of the six books in tow, Janie drives home. She is fascinated. She makes dinner with a book in her hand. She reads until midnight. And then she takes a deep breath and talks to herself as she gets ready for bed.
“I have a problem,” she says quietly, trying not to feel like a dork. “I have a problem, and I need to solve it. I would like to have a dream about how to solve this problem.”
She concentrates. Climbs into bed, closes her eyes, and continues in a calm voice. “I would like to dream about what I can do to block out other people’s dreams. I want—” she falters. “I mean, I would like to help people, and I also . . . would like . . . to live a normal life. So their dreams don’t fuck up my life forever.”
Janie breathes deeply. She stops speaking, and instead focuses her mind on her problem. Until she remembers. “And I would like to remember the dream when I wake up,” she adds out loud.
Over and over, she repeats the words in her head.
She peeks at the clock quickly and chides herself for messing with the mojo.
12:33 a.m.
She focuses again. Breathes deeply. Lets the thoughts float around and meld together in her mind.
Slowly, she feels the thoughts filling the room. She breathes them in. They caress her skin. She lets her mind be free, allows her muscles to relax.
And she lets the sleep in.
Nothing happens at first.
Which is good, she discovers.
Lucidity comes late.
2:45 a.m.
Janie finds herself in the middle of a dark lake. She treads water for what seems like hours. She grows weary. Panics. Sees Cabel on the shore with a rope. She waves frantically to him, but he doesn’t see her. She can’t hold on. The water fills her mouth and ears.
She submerges.
There are many people under the surface of the water—men, women, children, babies. She looks at them with panic, her lungs bursting. They stare at her, eyes bulging in death.
She looks around frantically. The pressure in her lungs is overpowering. Everything dims, and goes black. She feels her eyeballs bulging, and hears the haunting inner laughter of the floating bodies around her.
Janie gasps and sits up. It’s 3:10 a.m.
She breathes hard. Writes down the dream in a spiral notebook.
Tries not to feel bad that she failed. She expects this.
It’s not over, she tells herself, lying back down.
Let me dream it again, she thinks, calmly. And this time, I won’t drown. I will breathe under water, because this is my dream and I can do what I want with it. I will swim like a fish. Because I know how to swim. And . . . and I have gills. Yes, that’s it. I have gills.
She repeats this to herself as she lies down.
3:47 a.m.
She doesn’t have gills.
She rolls over and groans, frustrated, into her pillow. Repeats the mantra.
4:55 a.m.
It begins again.
When Janie slips under water, exhausted, her lungs burning, she looks around at the others who are floating under the surface.
She begins to panic.
The bulging eyes.
And then.
Miss Stubin blinks at her from under the water. She smiles encouragingly. She is not one of the dead.
Floating next to Miss Stubin is another Janie, who nods and smiles. “It’s your dream,” she says.
The drowning Janie looks from Miss Stubin to Janie. Her vision dims.
She grows frantic.
“Concentrate,” Janie says. “Change it.”
Drowning Janie closes her eyes. Falls farther under the water. She kicks her feet as she loses consciousness, struggling to move, to get back above the water.
“Concentrate!” Janie says again. “Do it!”
Gills pop from the drowning Janie’s neck.
She opens her eyes.
Breathes. Long, cleansing breaths, underwater. It tickles. She laughs in bubbles, incredulous.
She looks up, and Miss Stubin and Janie are smiling. Clapping, slow motion and soundless, in the water. They swim over to her.
The formerly drowning Janie grins. “I did it,” she says. Bubbles come out of her mouth, and the words appear individually above her head when each bubble pops, like a cartoon.
“You did it,” Janie says, nodding, her hair swishing like silk.
“Let’s swim now,” Miss Stubin says. “Someone’s waiting for you on the shore.”
Janie and Miss Stubin swim partway with the formerly drowning Janie, and then they stop and wave her on.
She nears the shore, and when she surfaces and can stand, the gills disappear. She walks out of the water, streaming wet in her pajamas—boxer shorts and a T-shirt.
Cabel is there. He’s wearing boxer shorts too. His muscles ripple in the sunlight. His body is tan. It glistens.
It looks like they are on a deserted, tropical island.
He doesn’t move.
He doesn’t have a rope anymore.
He’s sitting in the sand.
She waits for him to do something, but he doesn’t move.
“Remember, it’s your dream,” she hears. It’s her other Janie speaking, the one who is aware that she is dreaming.
Janie hesitates and approaches Cabel. “Hey, Cabel.”
He looks up. “I care about you,” he says. His eyes are brown and turning muddy.
Janie wants to believe him. And so she does.
“What about Shay?” she asks.
“Dreams aren’t memories,” he says. “Please talk to me.”
6:29 a.m.
Janie smiles in her sleep. She watches over herself in the dream, and plunges back into it, taking it in different directions, starting over at various spots to make it fun, or sexy, or beautiful, or silly.
November 27, 2005, 8:05 a.m.
The alarm clock rings. Janie keeps her eyes closed and reaches to turn it off. She lies in bed, going over the dream in detail, remembering it. Memorizing it.
When she has it solidly in her mind, she sits up and writes it in her journal.
She can’t stop smiling.
It’s a small step. But it gives Janie hope.
She studies the books all day, until it’s time for work.
9:58 p.m.
It’s quiet at the nursing home. The residents are all tucked in their beds, doors closed. Janie fills out charts at the front desk. She is alone.
The call panel is dark, until a white light flashes from the room Miss Stubin once occupied. A new resident is there now. His name is Johnny McVicker.
Janie sets down her pen and goes into the room to see what he needs.
