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“I’ll visit you at work tomorrow on my break, how about that?” she asked.
“Sounds good,” I said. “I’ll save you a cherry tart.”
“It’s a plan,” she said, giving me a kiss.
I drove her back to the inn and waved before she disappeared into the side door to head up to her room.
I had to suppress the urge to immediately text her just so I could talk to her again. I wasn’t going to let myself go there. I wasn’t going to let myself get obsessed. Look at how that had turned out last time. No. I was going to be in control and mature. I was going to consider carefully if I wanted to continue things with Alivia. I was going to make a list or a spreadsheet or something. I wasn’t going to let my emotions run away with me.
* * *
That promise lasted until I got home and went to make the bed and smelled Alivia’s scent on my sheets. I inhaled and wished she was here. Even if she was just sitting on the couch and reading, I wish she was here. I craved her presence.
Silly. I was being silly.
I fluffed the pillows with a little more force than I needed to and then went out to the kitchen.
The flowers on the dining table were so beautiful, and I couldn’t resist going over to sniff them again. Lovely.
I stared out the window and wondered if Alivia had gone to the beach yet. What she was wearing. How long her run would be.
Shaking my head at myself, I realized I needed to get my mind off Alivia. I needed to fill my mind with something else.
I threw myself first into cleaning, and then reading a book that I’d been saving in case of emergency. I needed a distraction.
The book worked. Sort of. Except little things kept making me think of Alivia. Either a description of someone’s hair, or their personality, or something that she would say.
Alivia was everywhere, even when she wasn’t around.
I closed my eyes and tried to give myself a pep talk.
“Come on. You can read a book and not think about Alivia for a few minutes. You’ve literally spent the whole weekend with her. That’s more than enough time. You’re going to see her tomorrow. Calm the fuck down.”
The pep talk was less effective than I liked, so I decided the best way to get my mind off Alivia was to send a message to Natalie and ask if I could come hang out with her and Em for a little while.
Absolutely. Everything okay?
I told her I was fine, just a little lonely, which wasn’t completely wrong.
