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She called a dare, and we sent her off to get a pair of guy’s underpants. She came back triumphant, waving a pair of plaid boxers in the air. Then we went around, everyone choosing dare until it got to me.
“Truth,” I said, still not quite bold enough to let these girls give me any task they wanted.
“Okay, truth it is.” Jenna leaned in. “Are you into Ethan?”
The question hit the table like a lead weight. The truth I’d been trying to deny was now about to be ripped out of me if I played the game honestly. Five sets of eyes bore into me as they waited.
“Uh,” I said, pausing while I hoped something would happen and interrupt our game, but after many long seconds and running out of breath, I finally answered, “Yes.”
“I knew it!” Jenna pumped a fist in the air. “See! Youareinto him! Girl, you gotta make your move!”
“I already made my move. And it was a big mistake.”
Five sets of eyes widened.
“Whoa. Back up. You skipped this part of the story, girl,” Tami said. “Spill.”
With a deep breath, I finally told them the parts I’d left out. I told them how I’d blacked out that night with Ethan and thought I’d slept with him. Then with that thought in mind, I’d decided to go for it on the train again.
“But it turns out we hadn’t even kissed! He’d been a perfect gentleman and put me to sleep on the couch. So, you can imagine my horror finding out that I’d just gone and planted one on him, and it was ourfirst kiss.”
Jo twisted up her face. “I don’t see the horror here. All I see is that a really good guy didn’t take advantage of you, so your first kiss was actually a good one instead of a creepy one.”
“Samesies,” Jenna agreed.
I let out a breathy sigh. “I know he was a nice guy about it, and I so appreciate that, but it’s that it was different when I thought we’d already done it. As I explained to him, it’s like eating pizza on a diet. Once you break the diet and go off it, you may as well give up the day and go wild. I thought I’d already eaten the pizza, and then to find out I hadn’t had my first one-night stand, I just didn’t have it in me to do it ... to eat the uneaten pizza.”
“Ah. The diet binge eating.” Trish nodded. “I get that. I can be so perfect on my diet, but the minute I take one wrong bite, I’m like, ‘Well, today is shot. May as well go balls to the wall and eat everything I can possibly get my hands on.’”
“Yes!” I pointed at her. “Exactly. But in this case, Ihadstayed on my diet, so I just decided not to break it. And now here we are. And I’m still on my diet.”
“You really haven’t ever had a one-night stand?” Tami asked.
I shook my head. “No. Never. Have you?”
She snorted. “Uh, yeah. Of course. I haven’t always been engaged to Tim.”
My eyes flipped open wide. “Really? You’ve done it?”
“Oh, yeah. I had a couple wild flings before I met Tim.”
“I’ve had one.” Jo raised her hand.
One by one, they all started lifting their hands.
“I had a crazy fling on spring break once with this stupid hot guy,” Jenna said, her eyes glazing over as I imagined she was transported back to that time, then they narrowed, and her lip stiffened. “I mean, it ended horribly, but it was really fun while it lasted.”
“So,allof you have done it? You’ve all hooked up with a guy with no regard for whether or not a relationship was in the cards.”
“Yep,” they echoed.
Nancy shrugged. “Maybe it’s time you tried it too. There’s something really fun and freeing about not thinking about the future with a guy ... just enjoying the moments you have together while you have them.”
I tipped my head. “How do you do it without getting hurt? I’m so worried I’ll get attached.”
Trish shrugged. “You just don’t let your mind go to that place. Just enjoy the chemistry you have with that person right there at the moment. Don’t think about white picket fences and your beautiful kids. Just think about how much fun you can have getting all naked and sweaty together.” She bobbed the plastic penis on her head up and down as she waggled her eyebrows, and everyone started giggling.
“I don’t know if I can do it. I feel like I couldn’t separate the sex from the relationship. My sister, Iris, has done it countless times, and she’s always telling me to try it, but I just don’t know if I can.”
