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“I can’t wait to see him,” she was saying, excitement making her voice breathy.
I shot her a look. “You saw him yesterday, didn’t you?”
We weren’t high enough in the ranks to have attended the end of summer BBQ the O’Donnellys held at their compound, but we all knew about it. And everyone who couldn’t attend wished like hell they could.
“Well, yeah, but it wasn’t enough.” She released a dreamy sigh. “I’m so lucky he’s mine.”
Wanting to gag, but managing not to, I just hummed. I still wasn’t sure why I was friends with Deirdre. She and I weren’t alike, but I was grateful to her because she’d taken me under her wing my first day at St. Mary’s and had brought me into her circle.
Sometimes I thought it was for the same reason a bride always made her bridesmaids wear shitty dresses—to make herself look better—but I was still happy not to be on my own. She tended to search me out too, sitting next to me and choosing to talk with me rather than the others, though she’d known them a lot longer than she had me and their families were similarly ranked.
Last year, we’d learned about the caste system in India, and I’d realized that was how life was in the Irish Mob. You stuck to your caste, you didn’t move from it, you didn’t leave it ever, and you worked among it too. Unless you were promoted, and those promotions happened for a reason.
Dad had never said why he’d gone from being a run-of-the-mill gofer, a simple runner who ducked and dove for the Points, to a crew man who answered to a captain, and I’d never ask.
I didn’t want to know.
Our good fortune was paid for by the blood of others.
Sometimes, I thought I was the only one who saw that.
In the distance, St. John’s loomed up ahead.
It was an old building, looking like something from an architecture magazine, because it resembled a cathedral in my opinion, with its towering turrets, endless rows of windows, and craggy walls that had gargoyles on them—gargoyles I knew I’d be studying and drawing later tonight. It took up an entire block, and in space poor Manhattan, that was really saying something.
As Deirdre carried on talking about Declan—her favorite subject and potentially the reason why she liked sitting next to me, because I let her talk for hours on end about him—I stared at the high school and tried not to be nervous.
I hated new beginnings.
I hated change.
By the time we were halfway through the day, I was still feeling on edge, nervous, but a little better because with the morning done, I only had a couple of hours before I could get the hell out of this uniform. The box pleats bunched up under my butt, making it uncomfortable to sit on, especially because Mom had used a whole freakin’ bottle of starch on it. And the shoes pinched.
Badly.
Grunting as I took a seat at the cafeteria table opposite Deirdre, I muttered, “Anyone else hate this uniform?”
It wasn’t the first complaint, but because we’d all been dealing with it for half the day, it stirred an argument because Kylie insisted plaid did better things for her butt than the old skirt at St. Mary’s had.
As I pondered how plaid could do anythingfor a butt, I saw him.
I didn’t have to know his name to recognize who he was.
What he was.
An O’Donnelly.
He wore the same crappy uniform as us, but he somehow managed to look like a man instead of a boy in it. The guys wore gray pants with a faint pinstripe, a white shirt, matching shoes, and a larger blazer with a long plaid tie. The tie he’d loosened, and he’d unfastened the top button of his shirt. In his hand he held his blazer, and it was all bunched up in a way that told me he didn’t give a shit if he wrecked it, and that money didn’t matter because if I’d done that and had to buy a new one, Mom would have had a fit.
But the uniform wasn’t what made the man, because I was most definitely looking at a man. He was surrounded by boys with fuzz on their lip, for God’s sake, weeny kids, where he was a mile ahead of them.
Was it Conor? I knew he was the eldest O’Donnelly at school. Eoghan was a couple of years below me, so this could be Declan.
Deirdre’s Declan?
She’d never shown me a picture, but God, no wonder she could talk about him for days.
He was beautiful.
