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NINETEEN
‘BACK IN THE DARK’ RAMSEY
Luce
Iimagined Lexi’s taste many times since meeting her, wondering if she tastes as good as she looks, and I was right, more than right, but one thing I couldn’t have been wrong about was the fact that one taste would be enough. Fuck, I’m a goner, and I’m trying very hard not to be. I wanted something more with her, wanted to be something more…but I’m not. I’m incapable of being anything good enough for her. My worth isn’t much, all I bring is baggage and a rap sheet, and that’s not good enough for her. Not in my mind at least.
So, I force myself to detach from the feelings forming in me, force them to the deepest parts of my mind as I dry her off, which by the way, doesn’t help one-fucking-bit. Her body is sinuous, a mix of lithe and curvy. Her full breasts and flared hips make me want to bite her all over, replacing the teeth marks on her with my own. Fuck me, I know that sounds completely fucked up, but I am who I am. My demons are never really hidden, just calm until I get the scent of blood…and now the scent of Lexi is enough to send me into a frenzy.
The moment I’m done, I turn to leave the restroom, moving like a goddamn robot with a giant stick up my ass, but Lexi stops me.
“Did I do something wrong?”
Fuck, her words melt my coldness a little.
“Of course not.” I tell her as I turn back, clenching my fists at my side when I see the hurt in her eyes.
“Then why…” She trails off, her hand flapping between us while the other grips the towel at her breasts.
“I meant what I said, Lex. I’m no good for you.”
Anger flares in her eyes, “I think I should be the one who decides that, not you or anyone else. Don’t give me a cop-out answer, Luce. It’s insulting.”
I reach up and pull at the collar of my soaking shirt, pulling it off and tossing it to the sink before ripping off my jeans, my still hard-as-fuck cock tenting. “You’re wife material, but I’m not the kind of groom you want waiting at the end of the aisle. I’m the man who will bring your darkest desires to life, the guy who will make you crave the filthiest touches, the one who plays in the dark where the monsters creep. Your light is too good for me, sweetness.”
She drops the towel, her arms opening wide, and I’ve never seen anyone as sexy as her right now. Her wet hair is tangled, her skin is flushed, and the hickey marks I left on her neck call to me, begging me to leave more. Her dusky nipples harden with the cold air, and she can’t hide the slight tremble in her voice as she speaks.
“What if I want your dark? You tell me you don’t want me wearing a mask, but what about what I want? I don’t care about marriage, I don’t care about clean-cut men who live in white picket fenced houses. That’s what the old me wanted. The light hearted, sappy, hopeful little woman I used to be wanted all that,” she steps closer, her chest rising and falling as she stops within an inch from me, “this Lexi is new, and all I want is your darkness and Gio’s light. So give me your filthy touches and make me crave dark desires, because I already do.”
I breathe deeply, hearing everything I’ve wanted to hear from her the moment I laid my eyes on her, but she doesn’t know me…
“You think you know what you’re getting yourself into with me, sweetness, but you don’t. Trust me you don’t because if you did, you’d never leave yourself vulnerable to me like this.” I gesture to her nakedness.
She scoffs, the sound going straight to my aching dick with the challenge in it, “Funny, you seem to think you know me well enough to decide what I can and can’t handle,” she tilts her head to the side, her eyes mocking, “but you don’t, do you Luce? I know what’s good for me, so let me choose. Or do you see me as too fucked in the head to make level-headed choices now?”
My hand grips the back of her neck tightly, my body shoving her back until she hits the wall behind her, bringing my lips a hair’s breadth from hers. “Since you’re so sure of yourself, let me tell you what I see when I look at you. I see a sick obsession. It’s so dirty and filthy that most nights, I lie awake with visions of your tight body invading my thoughts, making sweat soak through my sheets as I jerk myself to visions of your quivering pussy around my cock. I’m a slave to what I see, what I imagine.” I grind against her as I drag my lips to her cheek and down to her jaw. She tips her head back and lifts her leg over my hip before grinding her bare pussy against me.
“You’re like a shot of cocaine after years of sobriety. I’m a slave to you, hungry for you, thirsty for a taste, but that doesn’t even scratch the surface of what I want, and it’s those desires that should frighten you.”
I pull back to look into her eyes, my hand coming around to loosely grip her throat.
“What are they, those desires?” I grin when she swallows thickly, fear pulling her pupils into a pin prick as she anticipates my words.
“I want your blood, I want to watch you scream my name, I want your tears on my tongue. I won’t ever take what you don’t freely give, but I’m an all consuming man, sweetness. I won’t ever get my fill of you.”
She stares into my eyes, her browns to my greens, and I can see my words rolling over in her mind. Does she wonder how real the danger could be, or does she already know but throws self preservation to the wind?
“You’re like a deep abyss, the darkness so thick that light gets consumed by it, but Luce…I’ve never been afraid of the dark.”
Her lips slam to mine, and all of my control melts away leaving nothing but cautionless hunger and lustful abandon in its wake. I lift her from the floor before turning and placing her down on the counter of the sink. Our kiss is just as rough as the first time, but now there’s a slight hint ofwantrather than pureneedas there was in our first kiss. When I kissed Lexi that night, I was spiraling. I had just lost my sister and I needed an anchor, a distraction to pull me out of the depths of overwhelming grief, now, though? I just want this woman. I just want her like I want Gio. I’m hopelessly lost in my feelings for them. Hungry for the unit they formed, desperately wanting to have that for myself. I’ve always been content with loose acquaintances and the randoms I had in bed, but when I saw the bond Lexi and Gio shared, it made me realize I was missing something vital.For years now, I’ve pretended not to feel alone, and I began to believe my own lies, until I witnessed Gio and Lexi…being the outsider to what they had truly made me realize that I was utterly alone.
I wanted what they had, but I didn’t want it with just anyone…I want it with them.
Without breaking the kiss, I lose my briefs, kicking them to the side before slowing down and pulling back.
“I’m clean.” we both say in unison, before chuckling.
“I’ve never fucked anyone ungloved.” I tell her.
