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I was the last to arrive, and the remaining space was next to Mychal, across from Davis, who was wearing a plaid button-down, nicely ironed, sleeves rolled up just so, exposing his forearms. I'm not sure why, but I've always been pretty keen on the male forearm.
"Cool shirt," Davis said.
"Birthday present from Daisy," I said.
"You know, some people think it's bestiality, for a Wookiee to love a human," Daisy said.
Mychal sighed. "Don't get her started on the whole Are-Wookiees-people thing."
"That's actually the most fascinating thing about Star Wars," said Davis.
Mychal groaned. "Oh God. It's happening." Daisy immediately launched into a defense of Wookiee-human love. "You know, for a moment in Star Wars Apocrypha, Han was actually married to a Wookiee, but does anyone freak out about that?" Davis was leaning forward, listening intently. He was smaller than Mychal, but he took up more room--Davis's gangly limbs occupied space like an army holds territory.
Davis and Daisy were chatting back and forth about the dehumanization of Clone troopers, and Mychal jumped in to explain that Daisy was actually kind of a famous writer of Star Wars fan fiction. Davis looked her username up on his phone and was impressed by the two thousand reads on her most recent story, and then they were all laughing about some Star Wars joke I couldn't quite follow.
"Waters for everyone," Daisy said when Holly arrived to take our drink order.
Davis turned to me and said, "They don't have Dr Pepper?"
"Soft drinks aren't covered by the coupon," Holly explained, monotone. "But also, no. We have Pepsi."
"Well, I think we can spring for a round of Pepsis," he said.
I realized in the silence that followed that I hadn't spoken since answering Davis's compliment about my shirt. Davis, Daisy, and Mychal eventually went back to talking about Star Wars and the size of the universe and traveling faster than light. "Star Wars is the American religion," Davis said at one point, and Mychal said, "I think religion is the American religion," and even though I laughed with them, it felt like I was watching the whole thing from somewhere else, like I was watching a movie about my life instead of living it.
After a while, I heard my name and snapped into my body, seated at Applebee's, my back against the green vinyl cushion, the smell of fried food, the din of conversation pressing in from all around me. "Holmesy has a Facebook," Daisy said, "but her last status update is from middle school." She shot me a look that I couldn't quite interpret, and then said, "Holmesy's like a grandmother when it comes to the internet." She paused again. "Aren't you?" she said pointedly, and then I realized at last she was trying to make room for me to talk.
"I use the internet. I just don't feel a need to, like, contribute to it."
"It does feel like the internet already contains plenty of information," Davis allowed.
"Wrong," Daisy said. "For instance, there is very little high-quality romantic Chewbacca fic on the internet, and I am just one person, who can only write so much. The world needs Holmesy's Wookiee
love stories." There was a brief pause in the conversation. I felt my arms prickling with nervousness, sweat glands threatening to burst open. And then they went back to talking, the conversation shifting this way and that, everyone telling stories, talking over one another, laughing. I tried to smile and shake my head at the right times, but I was always a moment behind the rest of them. They laughed because something was funny; I laughed because they had.
I didn't feel hungry, but when our food arrived I picked at my veggie burger with a knife and fork to make it look like I was eating more than I could actually stomach. Eating quieted the conversation for a while, until Holly dropped off the check, which I picked up.
Davis reached across the table and put his hand on top of mine. "Please," he said. "It is not an inconvenience to me." I let him take it.
"We should do something," Daisy said. I was ready to go home, eat something in private, and go to sleep. "Let's go to a movie or something."
"We can just watch one at my house," Davis said. "We get all the movies."
Mychal's head tilted. "What do you mean you 'get all the movies'?"
"I mean, we get all the movies that go to theaters. We have a screening room, and we . . . just pay for them or whatever. I actually don't know how it works."
"You mean, when a movie comes out in theaters, it . . . also comes out at your house?"
"Yeah," Davis said. "When I was a kid, we had to have a projectionist come out, but now it's all digital."
"Like, inside your house?" Mychal asked, still confused.
"Yeah, I'll show you," Davis said.
Daisy looked over at me. "You up for it, Holmesy?" I contracted my face into a smile and nodded.
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