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Sabine
"You're in a really good mood."Rowan gives me a sly look when I pull out another batch of paperwork and slide some over.
"What are you talking about. I'm in no better mood than I'm always in." I shrug and try to move to the next batch. I'm lying through my teeth. I'm in a much better mood today than I have been in a while. Good sex will do that to you!
"You're a shit liar, Sabine." She laughs and picks up another sheet of paper. She's the only one that I've told so far about the new bar. Now that it's really getting under way I'm sure that the rest of the family is going to find out soon enough. I want to make sure I have all my ducks in a row here.
"I'm not lying. Why can't I just be happy." I laugh.
Rowan's head pops up and her eyes get wider, "I hope you feel like that after this." She mumbles.
"What?" I turn to look over my shoulder. The joy I was just feeling drains from my body when I see Tristan coming in my direction. I know I was sure the guys would find out about this place but I didn't think it'd be this fast.
From the look on his face, he seems like he's not pissed off. After the last time we spoke on the phone I would have thought he'd be here to rip my head off.
"Look at what we have here. More secrets I see." He says as he stops in front of me.
"If you're here to start a beef you can save it." I stand up from my chair.
"On that note, I think I'm going to go take a walk." Rowan gets up and leaves Tristan and I in the room by ourselves.
"Calm down Sabine. I'm not here to start shit. I was just here to check up on you. You know spend some time with my sister." He raises one of his eyebrows and sits down in the chair that Rowan just vacated.
My body is still on alert but if he's saying he's here to keep the peace I'm not going to be the one keeping up the hostility.
"Fine," I sit down and push the papers away, "How are you doing? How's Poppy?"
"Do you really want to know?" He asks, and I have to stop myself from reacting.
It's not like I've been the nicest family sister in all of existence so I get why he'd be suspicious that all of a sudden, I want to know what's going on with him.
"Yes, Tristan I really want to know. I know I'm usually cold but I care about you and want you to be okay." I reach over and squeeze his hand doing my best to be encouraging. It's hard for me to show any emotions but I do care about my family.
"Thanks. I'm getting better. It's been hard but everyday things are a little bit better. The pain isn't as sharp as before. It's always there but it's not as bad." He says and shrugs.
I shake my head and look down at the table. Dimitri really did a number on Tristan and for the longest a lot of us thought that we weren't going to be able to bring the old Tristan back. He's still different but I'll take how his now over how he was when we first found him. "I'm so sorry Dimitri hurt you."
"Yeah, I'm sorry he hurt you too." Tristan says.
My eyes pop back up to him. Tristan is the only one that knows about the relationship Dimitri and I had all those years ago. "It's nothing compared to what you went through. It was just young dumb love."
"That might be just as bad. You know when I was in that warehouse Dimitri made sure that I knew I was never getting out. He made sure that I knew that no one was looking for me or cared. I can't imagine how it must have felt knowing that the man you thought loved you was the one to do this to your family."
"It nearly drove me out of my mind." I admit to him. "What makes it worse is I don't know what happened. My mind makes things up and everyday yall were tortured a different way. I just wish..." I let out a sigh and look away. I shouldn't be putting this on him. Tristan already has enough going on in his life for me not to make him feel guilty. He's never told anyone what happened besides Poppy I don't think but it can't hurt to ask. "Will you tell me what happened? I don't want to hurt you but..."
Tristan closes his eyes tightly and just as I'm about to change the subject he starts to talk.
"Everyday it was more of the same. He always had me tied down. They'd beat me with belts or whatever else they could get their hands on. They wouldn't stop until I couldn't fight any more. They strap me to the table and then once I had no where to go to they drop their pants and violate me. There was just no way for me to fight back. I'd beg for them just to kill me but they were having too much fun. Him and his guards. There were a few that didn't go along with what Dimitri was doing but they didn't help me either. Instead they stood back and let what was happening happen. " He let out a shuttering breath and I grab hold of the tables edge tightly doing my best not to react. He's never said anything like this out loud as far as I know and the fact that he's trusting me by telling me what actually happened is a big thing for him. It's a big thing for our relationship.
"When he was done, he'd leave me there tied up for anyone else to use. They barely fed me or gave me any water. He didn't want me to get any of my strength back. When the place was up in flames, I couldn't even crawl. I think part of me wanted to lay there and die." He opens his eyes and looks at me. "I know there's nothing that I could have done to stop him, but when I first got home, just knowing something like that happened to me I was blind with shame and rage. It's the only reason I didn't want to see or talk to anyone. Now things are better, I'm not back to normal but I know I have control over things now. I need that, you know?"
"I hear you. It all makes complete sense and honestly for you to get through something like that and still have something like a regular life it's fucking remarkable. You're stronger than most, Tristan, and I'm not just saying that bullshit because you're family. Having something like that happen is enough to cause anyone to lose their shit." I tilt my head for a second before I look back up at him.
"You know, I thought that would be harder. Like you'd judge me."
"What? No way. I'm honored that you'd even want to talk to me, especially after the kind of sibling I've been, but I'm not going to judge you. Never." I answer honestly.
