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I laughed, grabbing his hand and linking our fingers. “We can watch whatever you want.”
He stared down at me, his eyes searching my face. “Yes. I think I’d like that.”
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I never thought that not seeing Busy would affect me the way it had. Even though we had gotten to know each other a little more over the past few weeks, not seeing her after getting used to having her around, messed me up. Even though apparently, I had seen her the night before, time was lost on me, and I wanted her by my side at all times.
As the days went by where I didn’t have any answers, my anxiety rose.
“I’ve seen this movie a lot thanks to my Uncle Catch but it’s a good one.” Busy joined me on the couch and pressed a button on the controller.
When the movie started playing, I was sucked into the storyline almost instantly. It was a romance of sorts but funny and dramatic at parts as well.
“Have you seen this one before?” Busy asked well into the movie.
“No. I haven’t seen a lot of movies,” I confessed.
“No? How come?”
I looked at her then. I wasn’t sure what I was expecting to see but when she looked genuinely curious as to why I didn’t watch a lot of movies, I let out a sigh of relief. “I wasn’t allowed to watch movies as a kid. Now that I’m older, I just haven’t had time.”
“Oh.” She looked back out in front of her. She inched closer to me and covered my hand that was resting on my thigh. “We can watch as many movies as you want. We can catch you up on all of the classics.” She squeezed my hand and gave me a small smile.
When she went to pull away, I caught her hand and brought it down between us, linking our fingers.
Her cheeks reddened.
I made it my sole mission to keep that blush on her skin and that smile on her lips.
While we continued watching the movie, a comfortable silence fell between us. I never had this before. I never had someone who actually wanted to spend time with me. Even my club had left me alone most days. The only time I actually spent any amount of time with them was when we had meetings or went on runs together. Other than that, I was alone. Always so fucking alone.
While Busy laughed at certain parts in the movie, I couldn’t help but wonder what would come of this. Sure, we had become close, but it was only because I was living under the same roof as her. Wasn’t it? Once this was over, would she toss me aside like everyone else in my life? Animals were the only ones who never betrayed me. They never used me to their advantage or took things from me I never wanted to give them in the first place. It was why Trigger and I had gotten along so well. Both of us had our control taken away at some point in our lives and neither of us trusted the other. Not for a while. And then he was taken. He was ripped from my life before I had a chance to show him how much he meant to me. Most would say that he was just a dog but to me, he was more than that. He was my best friend.
My throat closed up, my chest constricting. I realized then that I had never actually mourned Trigger’s death. I told Busy I would mourn later. Now was definitely not the time. Not when I was in a place where my vulnerability could cost me my life. But I couldn’t help the grief slamming into me.
I took a deep breath and then another, itching to reach out to Busy and use her to make me feel better.
“What did you think?”
Busy’s question caught me off guard. I looked between her and the TV. The credits were now rolling.
“You weren’t paying—” She frowned. “Is everything okay?”
I swallowed hard. “No.”
She turned toward me. “Did you want to watch another movie or talk or something else?”
Something else. Fuck me, did I ever want to do something else. I had kept her at arm’s length, trying to be a gentleman, when I really, I wanted to pull her into my clutches and bask in her innocence.
Taking a chance, I reached out to cup her cheek. “I could go to hell for the things I want to do to you.”
The red in her cheeks darkened. “Oh. Well…I think I’d be right there alongside you.”
I chuckled, my dick lengthening at her words.
“I’m good with talking, Busy. I just don’t want to be alone.” I wasn’t sure how I felt about being completely honest. It was new for me and something that I wasn’t sure I could ever get used to. No matter how much I tried.
