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“Never. He worked so hard for us, he did everything for us. I blamed myself… for years. Blamed myself for not fighting her off me, but then again… I was a child. Even then though, I didn’t want dad to suffer, to worry, so I took it all… I knew he loved her… I rationalized my secrecy with keeping the object of his affection close to him.”
“When did he remarry?” His questions are barely audible, like he does not know how to ask them and show disinterest at the same time.
“I was fifteen… she killed them almost three years later.”
“Then you killed her.”
“Yes.”
“Good.”
Here it is again. That tone in his voice that approves of this, of me, of killing my mother. It sounds like pure evil, vibrating so deep inside of him, like the depths of hell are urging me to embrace the darkness inside of myself.
“How am I less of a monster than she was? After all… I took a life as well.” I turn my head to the left and catch his midnight gaze.
“Because you took the right life.” He holds my eyes, I cannot blink.
The right life…
“Does that justify what I have done?”
“In this world, Suki, we don’t need to justify ourselves. Stop playing by the rules of a world you don’t belong to and let the demons roam free. Let them sate their hunger, let them revel in the blood they crave.”
His hand is cradling the side of my head, his thumb moving gently on my skin, making me spin out of control. My head is already pounding from Adrien hitting me, but now, it is even worse. I do not know what to make of this, of Niklas. His words bite, they threaten and possess, his hands though, they possess as well… just not in the same way.
I take in his words and turn them over in my head repeatedly. I’m not entirely sure what world I belong to. I always fought too hard to feel like I belonged in the world I was born in. However, I do not know if I belong in his world either.
There is remorse in my soul. Isn’t there? I feel like I am floating in limbo, trapped between two worlds, each of them pulling me in their direction for totally distinct reasons.
“Niklas…”
“Yes, Suki.”
“What do you want from me?” I hold his gaze as he ponders my question. I need to know. My head is spinning, my heart is stumbling and my body is trembling with the confusion he creates inside of me. His words say something, his body language something else, and the man himself… the man gives me all sorts of mixed feelings, from fear to desire to murderous hunger and lust.
I touch the hand cupping my face and the arm holding my body afloat. Then I run my fingers through his thick wiry beard before cupping his cheek and it is then that I see it. His brooding expression falters, and I swear I can feel his skin softening into my palm. I do not want to miss this, miss that spark in his eyes that only seems to happen because of me.
I see it when he touches me.
I see it when he is about to run after me.
I see it when I scream.
But I’m afraid if I look into his eyes for too long, he will know what I see… and he will somehow end it, hide. I close my eyes, feeling like I would rather stop looking now, rather than never see it again.
“What do you want from me, Niklas?” I ask again, my eyes closed, hand still on his cheek brushing slowly past his temple and to the short hair at the side of his head.
I feel his cock hardening against my back, but he does not move. He does not even twitch.
“I don’t know anymore…” My eyes dart open and I am assaulted by his blue gaze. I feel like I’m drowning again, pulled into the depths of an ocean of his own creation, demons welcoming me and the monster, the monster is coming for me.
He doesn’t know…
I turn my gaze, looking at our bodies, fitted together like two Tetris pieces in the pink water.
Pink water?
I run a hand over the spot on my head that hurts and I see the blood smeared on it. I know there are at least two cuts on my legs that must have been bleeding and turned the water pink as well.
