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I let him hold me and console me and let his words sink in. Maybe I should just tell Mason what’s going on. He deserves to know. And maybe we really can make this work.
Sam is always so positive about everything. And after what he’s planning to do, my problems seem almost insignificant.
“Besides,” Sam adds. “I think Kylie will be a great big sister.”
I smile. “She keeps telling me she wants a sister or brother.”
“You see? Dreams are coming true all over the place.”
Chapter 27
Mason
I know I’m supposed to trust her. I know I’m being a dick when I think she might be cheating on me. Just because Nicole did, doesn’t mean everyone else out there is a conniving bitch.
But I don’t know for sure that I can trust Natalie. Iwantto trust her. With all my heart.
It’s just taken me this long to find someone again after years and years of being single thanks to how much it hurt when Nicole betrayed me. I can’t have another relationship blow up that way. I can’t date another person who, in the long run, doesn’t give a shit about me.
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do,” I say to Rooster.
I went to the gym to blow off some steam. Now that I’m not on the field anymore, playing games, I have less of a physical outlet. I’m not nearly as active as I used to be.
When I ran into Rooster, he saw something was wrong. He knows every member on the team.
We ran it out on the treadmills and spotted each other lifting weights, but nothing worked to take the edge off. I’m wired as fuck and I don’t know how to deal with my feelings.
Finally, we’re in the men’s room, getting dressed after showering, when he decides to push.
It doesn’t take much to blurt out everything that’s going on. I’m such a fucking open book these days; it’s crazy.
“Why don’t you talk to her about it?” Rooster asks when I’m done telling him what I fear. “Communication is the downfall of every relationship. At least, the lack thereof. You just need to be open with her.”
I sigh. “I’ve already fucked that up by demanding she tell me the last time I saw her with the guy. Of course, she shuts down on me because why the hell wouldn’t she? I have no right to demand to know where she is and who she’s with.”
“You’re right; you don’t,” Rooster agrees. “But you can tell her what happened with your ex so she understands what you’re going through. It might help her see that your reaction was exactly that—areaction.”
I nod. I know Rooster is right. But it’s not that simple. I’ve already got so much going on that Natalie’s helping me through. She’s a pillar of strength when it comes to my mom, and to put this on her on top of everything else feels pathetic.
Besides, she has so much going on in her life, too.
“It just feel like a psycho,” I admit. “We haven’t been seeing each other for very long and I’ve already laid so much on her. Adding this to the mix might just scare her off.”
“Isn’t your relationship pretty intense already?” Rooster asks.
I nod. Itisintense. She told me about her deceased husband; my mom is in and out of the hospital; she has a daughter…nothing about us is simple and straightforward.
“Maybe that’s the reason you can talk to her, then,” Rooster continues. “She’s not a fickle, air-headed bimbo. You’re serious about her, and it sounds like she’s serious about you. You should just talk to her.”
Rooster is right. That will change everything. If I talk to Natalie about what’s going on and how I feel about it, then we can figure it out without me sounding pathetic and without her thinking I’m a controlling bastard. It will set me at ease, and we can move forward without trouble.
Well, withoutextratrouble.
“Thanks, man,” I say to Rooster. “I appreciate it.”
“Anytime. I’m the resident psychologist.” He winks at me. “No drama of my own, so I get to help out with everyone else’s.”
I grin at him and finish up before I leave the gym. I send her a message, asking to meet for a quick drink or something, somewhere.
