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Him overcoming the urge was almost more reassuring than him never having it.

I didn’t need some ridiculous blind devotion, didn’t need him to not be human. We’d both been trained to suppress whateverweneeded, to present a specific picture to those who saw us. Our discomfort, anxieties, triggers… ourhappinessdidn’t matter. And our feelings never took precedence over the agenda.

So, not only were we fighting against what had been ingrained as a natural urge within us, we were up against all the stuff everybody else went through too.

So no, I didn’t need any extra, any of the stuff that was purely about my ego.

I just neededhimhonestly, needed him to keep finding the strength to overcome the urge to not rely on default behaviors. He wasn’t a Thorn anymore, and I wasn’t a Rose, we were just Dacia and Isaiah. Just Dee, just Zay.

And we were fortunate enough to have found our way back to each other.

So really... Fuck that breakfast.

It took nothing for Zay to pick up on my energy shift and meet me with the same. With my arms flung around his neck, I pressed up into him, and his hands went immediately under my robe, gripping and squeezing my ass as his mouth crashed down onto mine. From there, it was all about finding the physical connection again - robe open, up on the counter, with Isaiah’s sweats pulled down around his hips.

It was crazy… as much as I’d imagined myself having a hard time with this, as reticent as I’d been to the idea of a mantouchingme, let alone being inside me… I couldn’t think of anything I wanted more than I wantedthis.

Him.

And maybe that was it - the fact that this wasn’t justanyman.

I don’t know that I would have ever been willing to push myself to this zone for a stranger, but with Isaiah… it just felt like the way it should have always been.

Him buried deep inside me, his tongue in my mouth, big hands gripping my thighs while he slow stroked me into a state of bliss.

Maybe it wasn’t the vacation I needed at all.

Maybe it was just this.

* * *

I madehim come ziplining with me after that.

It was already on my agenda for the day, but was something that I’d considered canceling since I knew Zay would follow me for my protection.

Now that we’d connected, though, it felt a little wrong to put him through such a stressful day while he was in his bodyguard capacity.

So… I decided he would come along as my companion instead.

He didn’t complain.

He gave me a long ass look, but he didn’t complain.

Hewent back to his room for a bit after we had that breakfast, so he could get fresh clothes and all that. But he came right back, just like he said he would, and then he and I headed out together.

Eventhatwas exhilarating.

Like I’d told Tempest, I still didn’t want to overthink this thing between us, but it was tough not to.

Not when he made me feel the way he did.

And so… I once again came back to a feeling of, with everything I’d gone through, if this worked in my favor, I deserved it.

If it didn’t… I’d survived worse.

“Hey what’s wrong?” I asked Zay, when we were at the tower we’d be diving from, already all strapped into our gear. He had a scowl on his face, and I wasn’t sure if it was because I had insisted on doing this despite his – unspoken - reservations, or if he saw something he didn’t like and was scoping out the scene.

“Huh?” he said, and I noticed how he kept a firm eye on the expanse of trees we’d be zipping over.

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