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I can’t hold it any longer. I need to dip my fingers in her sweet satisfaction. My hand trails down to the button of her jean, unfastening it easily and feeling the laced edge of her underwear and her lips let go of mine, finding me in panic.
“What’s wrong?” I struggle to get out.
“I’ve never-,” she pauses, “I’ve never been with a man before.”
My eyes widen. I knew these past two years had been lonely but I didn’t know she was a virgin.
“You never…had a boyfriend?” wait I know that answer. “Not even in high school?”
She shakes her head, biting her lip and I back off of her, “oh no…no, no, no, no, no. This is not how it happens for you then. You deserve so much better than this.”
“Then what,” she takes my hand as I gently pull her up.
“Then a one off on the couch after too much to drink.”
“I’ve only had one drink,” she laughs nervously.
“A drink you’re not even used to, and one is enough to make you do things you wouldn’t normally.”
“How do you know I don’t drink whiskey?”
I freeze and stare at her for a moment caught off guard by the question and then I correct myself, “Well, I’m guessing. You weren’t much of a drinker before either.”
“I didn’t expect you to be the type of person to care about these kinds of things,” she stutters.
“Why do you say that?”
“I’ve seen you Jax Astor. You don’t settle down with anyone too long.”
She’s right and hearing her say it out loud disgusts me. But I would for her.
I’ll make it right, make her understand, that it was only ever about her. This is only the beginning of our time. I’ll show her.
“Why don’t we just…talk?”
“Talk?” she laughs.
“Yeah,” I scoot back on the couch. “Like what you want to do with your life?”
She stares at me a moment confused, “Well okay.” She pulls her legs up crossing them in front of her, “I’ve been thinking about getting a degree in psychology. See I was thinking that I can learn to heal my own fucked up inner child, and then help others.”
“That’s awfully noble of you. “
“Noble?” she chuckles. “I don’t know about that. I just know I need a purpose. Soooo, I’ve enrolled in the local GED program.”
I stare at her in complete awe, admiring the person she’s become. She’s gone through hell and back, lost everything she loves, and yet she is still inherently good. She’s the complete opposite of me. My job, my real job, requires me to be involved in things that aren’t worthy of her. Still…I have to find a way…to keep her, be with her.
Time has shown over and over again that she’s not safe without me. So if keeping her safe means letting her into my fucked up world, then so be it.
We talk a little more and I fix her another drink, this time with something to help her sleep. We lie on the couch, look up through the sky light in the tall ceiling, talking about life and theories and even death and she falls asleep as we do.
I watch her sleep for a few moments and then I carry her to bed.
Chapter 19
Chalene
I stretch, pulling my covers up to my chin as my eyes crack open letting in just a bit of the morning light. I don’t remember how I got here…or the last thing we were talking about. I’m guessing he carried me up here?
