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When Ade oh so slowly slides into my wet heat, it’s the most sublime feeling in the world.
We don’t climax, we don’t chase that supreme moment of release. Instead, we savor… slowly, fully, deeply—appreciating, cherishing, loving.
Chapter Fifty-Two
Ella
MylastnightwithTiero—ever.
My insides churn and tumble each time I dwell on the thought; it’s racing constantly through my mind.
We haven’t seen much of each other today. The morning was taken up with final testing for surgery tomorrow morning, the other hours with visiting friends.
Rhia’s parents, Zoe and Connor have flown to Rome to support me, and Gary, Helen, and all of Aiden’s crew, including his mom, are on their way as well. I tried to talk Gary out of it when we spoke on the phone, but he wouldn’t be deterred.
I don’t like the idea of them having to sit for hours in a sterile waiting room until the surgery is finished. But at least Aiden won’t be alone in this stressful time, and for that, I’m grateful. And, God forbid, if there are any complications, he has all the people who love him there for support.
The same goes for Rhia. She’s trying hard not to show how anxious she is, but she can’t fool me. After eighteen years of friendship, I can pretty much read her mind.
Aiden didn’t leave my side all day, always making sure we were connected in some way; holding hands or at least one of his somewhere on my body.
Tonight, Rhia and Lex are with him. I’m so relieved he’s not alone; they won’t allow him to spiral down.
Meanwhile, Tiero’s hours are numbered, and perhaps mine are too.
The clock has been my enemy all day. I kept staring at it as minute by minute, hour by hour ticked by, panic creeping in when we reached single digits until surgery… until Tiero’s last breath.
Stop, stop, stop.Don’t think about this now.I chide myself, swallowing down my trepidations and the tears wanting to break free.
But it’s too late. I’m struck anew with the finality of this night.
This is one of the last times Tiero’s hazel-brown eyes will be focused on mine, lighting up with his love for me; one of the last times I’ll see his smile, one of the last times I’ll hear him call meangel.
It’s all too much.
I succumb to my misery, sobs racking my body.
I don’t want this to be the last time… yet there is nothing stopping it now.Like a runaway train, I have to endure the tick of each second bringing Tiero closer to his maker.
He’s not afraid. He’s happy, I remind myself. This is what he wants. And becoming one with the eternal light… it’s nothing to be sad about.
It’s my own selfish reasons that make me cling to him.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
But it’s so fricking hard.
“Please don’t cry, angel. I can’t stand it,” Tiero whispers, leaning over to kiss my tears away.
Just like Aiden did last night, I climbed on to the bed with Tiero, laying on my side watching him, our hands intertwined. Neither one of us wants to miss a second of the time we have left together. So we’re fighting sleep despite our bodies crying out for rest.
I take a shuddering breath, trying to pull myself together. He deserves happy moments this night, not me bawling my eyes out.
“We’ve never really done this, have we?” I hiccup.
Tiero looks at me questioningly. “Done what?”
“We never just laid in bed together. With no sex,” I explain.
